jellybean43
18-11-08, 13:02
Hi
I am feeling really low today. I first starting suffering with HA last October after i discovered a swelling above my right clavicle. I had just moved house and was feeling totally stressed out after a really long drawn out house sale etc.
Anyhow, I convinced myself(after googling) that i had lymphoma. I had to register at a new GPS(loved my old doctor so i found that really hard) and when i got there he said he couldnt feel anything but would send me for a chest X ray to make sure and do loads of blood tests(this was Xmas last year!!!).
I totally freaked out and when i got the all clear he then a brought another doctor in to double check(as he could see my panic!!). I still wasnt convinced and decided that that doctor had made me worse(always suffered from GA and my old GP knew this which this doctor obviously didnt) and went back in April to see another GP at the practice. He felt everything and said i was ok----by then i had convinced myself i could feel "something" under my arm and in my groin.
Anyway, he put me on propranalol and these just made me itch. I went back and said that i was now suffering from itching and this was another symptom of lymphoma. He said it was either the tablets(which when i stopped them the itching stopped!!) or anxiety. He then referred me for CBT.
I had to wait 6 months for CBT and started in September. I have done really well at this but this last week everything has gone to pot!!
I feel that i can cope with the counselling(which is very intense as anyone doing CBT will appreciate) IF I have nothing stressful going on in my life.
Last Friday my parents came through(see my last post please) and cos i havent seen them for ten years til last Xmas it is very stressful. I then had a busy weekend and lo and behold on Sunday evening i got a migraine. I have suffered migraines since i was 14 and they are no way as bad as they used to be. The GP has me on Pizotifen daily and a wafer (maxalt) when they start(been on these years and the migraine really isnt a major worry just a huge inconvenience!!!).. I can usually nip them in the bud now but they do leave me feeling drained. So, today i have got up and feel back to square one.
I am now convinced my bottom lip looks swollen(despite OH telling me it is normal) and when i googled this(why the heck did i do that?????) I see that that could be a symptom of lymphoma!!!!
I was doing sooooo well. I have to see the councellor on Friday and i know he will be suprised that i have had a major setback as i am sure i appeared to be doing really well. I have sat here all morning crying and just wishing i felt normal.
Please can anyone advise me.
I dont know whether to go back to my GP and tell him i still think i have lymphoma or just continue with the councelling?????Sorry to go on---I have no one else to turn to as no one understands. They just think that i am having councelling and will be ok!!!!
Thanks everyone xxx
I am feeling really low today. I first starting suffering with HA last October after i discovered a swelling above my right clavicle. I had just moved house and was feeling totally stressed out after a really long drawn out house sale etc.
Anyhow, I convinced myself(after googling) that i had lymphoma. I had to register at a new GPS(loved my old doctor so i found that really hard) and when i got there he said he couldnt feel anything but would send me for a chest X ray to make sure and do loads of blood tests(this was Xmas last year!!!).
I totally freaked out and when i got the all clear he then a brought another doctor in to double check(as he could see my panic!!). I still wasnt convinced and decided that that doctor had made me worse(always suffered from GA and my old GP knew this which this doctor obviously didnt) and went back in April to see another GP at the practice. He felt everything and said i was ok----by then i had convinced myself i could feel "something" under my arm and in my groin.
Anyway, he put me on propranalol and these just made me itch. I went back and said that i was now suffering from itching and this was another symptom of lymphoma. He said it was either the tablets(which when i stopped them the itching stopped!!) or anxiety. He then referred me for CBT.
I had to wait 6 months for CBT and started in September. I have done really well at this but this last week everything has gone to pot!!
I feel that i can cope with the counselling(which is very intense as anyone doing CBT will appreciate) IF I have nothing stressful going on in my life.
Last Friday my parents came through(see my last post please) and cos i havent seen them for ten years til last Xmas it is very stressful. I then had a busy weekend and lo and behold on Sunday evening i got a migraine. I have suffered migraines since i was 14 and they are no way as bad as they used to be. The GP has me on Pizotifen daily and a wafer (maxalt) when they start(been on these years and the migraine really isnt a major worry just a huge inconvenience!!!).. I can usually nip them in the bud now but they do leave me feeling drained. So, today i have got up and feel back to square one.
I am now convinced my bottom lip looks swollen(despite OH telling me it is normal) and when i googled this(why the heck did i do that?????) I see that that could be a symptom of lymphoma!!!!
I was doing sooooo well. I have to see the councellor on Friday and i know he will be suprised that i have had a major setback as i am sure i appeared to be doing really well. I have sat here all morning crying and just wishing i felt normal.
Please can anyone advise me.
I dont know whether to go back to my GP and tell him i still think i have lymphoma or just continue with the councelling?????Sorry to go on---I have no one else to turn to as no one understands. They just think that i am having councelling and will be ok!!!!
Thanks everyone xxx