lifeissweet
18-11-08, 16:08
hi this is day 6 of citalopram 10mg, and after a bumpy start of major anxiety and dizziness followed by suicidal thoughts (that still sometimes creep back in) i think i have got used to them, but still feel ike im not here and worry that the suicidal thoughts will come back worse (have seen doc at hospital at weekend about these and was told to continue with the pills but have company ie. my husband).
anyway i have appt on thursday to go back to gp to move up to 20mg and im dreading it...will it make the side-effects worse again for a while? im not bothered about the physical side-effects but i cant handle the depression/suicidal thoughts....i get feelings like im going to feel like this forever, and i dont want to be here anymore, and then i feel guilt as i have 2 young children and dont understand how i could feel this way when i have them..anyone else the same?
before i started the meds i had suicidal thoughts premenstrally after my 5mth old was born (i felt i couldnt be here anymore, havent ever planned anything), and was told it was severe pmt, hence the citalopram, but i also suffer bad anxiety and agoraphobia, so i guess citalopram will help all these things eventually...im just worried about upping my dose...i have to do it apparently so im well on the 20mg before my next period (in 2 wks).
can anyone advise??
anyway i have appt on thursday to go back to gp to move up to 20mg and im dreading it...will it make the side-effects worse again for a while? im not bothered about the physical side-effects but i cant handle the depression/suicidal thoughts....i get feelings like im going to feel like this forever, and i dont want to be here anymore, and then i feel guilt as i have 2 young children and dont understand how i could feel this way when i have them..anyone else the same?
before i started the meds i had suicidal thoughts premenstrally after my 5mth old was born (i felt i couldnt be here anymore, havent ever planned anything), and was told it was severe pmt, hence the citalopram, but i also suffer bad anxiety and agoraphobia, so i guess citalopram will help all these things eventually...im just worried about upping my dose...i have to do it apparently so im well on the 20mg before my next period (in 2 wks).
can anyone advise??