andie73
19-11-08, 07:22
I keep worrying that I am losing my mind. This time last year I was crippled with anxiety and I am really scared it is happening again. I have become really touchy about the smallest things, I am convinced that no one at work likes me. I have a wonderful husband that is so understanding but he always seems to be working in the run up to Christmas. I keep telling myself that I am just feeling lonely but I'm really worried it is more.
To those who saw my post last night, sorry to bore you. But I got it into my head last night, well loads of other times too, that my friend at work hated me. My reasons are well....why unearth would someone like her want to be friends with an unhinged freak like me!!! Very positive eh??
Anyway I ended up ringing her and finally got through to her after 4 attempts. By this time I was crying and convinced I was the worst person in the world. I'm scared I'm having a breakdown. I said this to her and she said I should go and see someone......I hate it when people say that.
I cope usually quite well despite quite bad anxiety at times and health anxiety constantly. I have low self esteem and try too hard to please people often to my own detriment. I am really worried that I am going to end up a jibbering wreck like I did last year when I was off work for 2 months. I really can't afford to take time off as last week it was announced that there are going to be redundancies, decisions by the 5th Dec, so I have to keep going. I'm finding it hard but also know that stopping off work last year did me no favours at all as I slid further and further down till I wouldn't come out of the house and was physically sick before my husband went to work.
Please help, I just couldn't cope with being like that again.
To those who saw my post last night, sorry to bore you. But I got it into my head last night, well loads of other times too, that my friend at work hated me. My reasons are well....why unearth would someone like her want to be friends with an unhinged freak like me!!! Very positive eh??
Anyway I ended up ringing her and finally got through to her after 4 attempts. By this time I was crying and convinced I was the worst person in the world. I'm scared I'm having a breakdown. I said this to her and she said I should go and see someone......I hate it when people say that.
I cope usually quite well despite quite bad anxiety at times and health anxiety constantly. I have low self esteem and try too hard to please people often to my own detriment. I am really worried that I am going to end up a jibbering wreck like I did last year when I was off work for 2 months. I really can't afford to take time off as last week it was announced that there are going to be redundancies, decisions by the 5th Dec, so I have to keep going. I'm finding it hard but also know that stopping off work last year did me no favours at all as I slid further and further down till I wouldn't come out of the house and was physically sick before my husband went to work.
Please help, I just couldn't cope with being like that again.