oshun
16-06-05, 12:58
nothing important,
just my couisn-in-law says when i am feeling bad the 1st thing i MUST do is talk to someone, anyone. well they live abroad, and i dont feel their is anyone today i can talk to right now, but i can post my thoughts in here. thanks.
just one of those times when my loneliness seems to be taking over again. so i try not to get too suicidal feeling abut it. i cant help thinking that any sensible person would have ended it all by now. i sometimes think being postive and optimistic, i have made myself a fool. i hope in the long term to be proved wrong. but i dont know if anyone else here does this, always puting on a brave cheery face in front of freinds when feeling sick with anxiety inside. i sort of decided i just cant do that to myslef anymore.
at home waiitng for the postman, something i have been doing nearly everyday for nearly a year now. it has become my evil pet anxiety. some days i am strong anough to go outside in spite of it but i dont think today is not one of those days
oh for a big hug from a real person.....
sorry to be so rambling and maybe self-indulgent.
take care, oshun
just my couisn-in-law says when i am feeling bad the 1st thing i MUST do is talk to someone, anyone. well they live abroad, and i dont feel their is anyone today i can talk to right now, but i can post my thoughts in here. thanks.
just one of those times when my loneliness seems to be taking over again. so i try not to get too suicidal feeling abut it. i cant help thinking that any sensible person would have ended it all by now. i sometimes think being postive and optimistic, i have made myself a fool. i hope in the long term to be proved wrong. but i dont know if anyone else here does this, always puting on a brave cheery face in front of freinds when feeling sick with anxiety inside. i sort of decided i just cant do that to myslef anymore.
at home waiitng for the postman, something i have been doing nearly everyday for nearly a year now. it has become my evil pet anxiety. some days i am strong anough to go outside in spite of it but i dont think today is not one of those days
oh for a big hug from a real person.....
sorry to be so rambling and maybe self-indulgent.
take care, oshun