ian_234
20-11-08, 14:44
Hi all ,
dont know where to start but im gonna give it a go :unsure:
I have had really bad anxiety for about 4 months now , but just recently it really has flared up , I also suffer with quite bad OCD , with intrusuve thoughts which really scare me , but I am beginning to start to accept that they are just thoughts and nothing else , but it gets soo difficult sometimes not to dwell on them !!.
My main problem by a mile at this moment is worrying about going mad , Ive googled and read too much lately and I know i shouldnt have done that as past experiences tell me that its not a good idea ! , my biggest fear is that im going to turn schizophrenic , and the more i worry about the symptoms the more my anxiety makes me feel paranoid and then starts playing games with my thoughts , I know in my heart that the thoughts are totally irrational but my anxiety blurs it sometimes and I find if i dont keep on worrying about going mad , I will , errrr ???? , lol
I have taken some reassurance that ppl who develop serious mental illness , dont have much insight into this , but it is somtimes not enough to relax me !!!.
So here is a shortened version of my life story , lol , but would love to hear from ppl that can relate or put my mind at rest a bit
Thanks :)
dont know where to start but im gonna give it a go :unsure:
I have had really bad anxiety for about 4 months now , but just recently it really has flared up , I also suffer with quite bad OCD , with intrusuve thoughts which really scare me , but I am beginning to start to accept that they are just thoughts and nothing else , but it gets soo difficult sometimes not to dwell on them !!.
My main problem by a mile at this moment is worrying about going mad , Ive googled and read too much lately and I know i shouldnt have done that as past experiences tell me that its not a good idea ! , my biggest fear is that im going to turn schizophrenic , and the more i worry about the symptoms the more my anxiety makes me feel paranoid and then starts playing games with my thoughts , I know in my heart that the thoughts are totally irrational but my anxiety blurs it sometimes and I find if i dont keep on worrying about going mad , I will , errrr ???? , lol
I have taken some reassurance that ppl who develop serious mental illness , dont have much insight into this , but it is somtimes not enough to relax me !!!.
So here is a shortened version of my life story , lol , but would love to hear from ppl that can relate or put my mind at rest a bit
Thanks :)