Martin
17-06-05, 14:43
Came across this site, figured there was nothing to lose by signing up. I'm a 30 year old (young?) guy, who lives in Denmark (the country, Europe.) The last year has been very turbulent for me on an internal level, whilst trying to "keep up appearances" toward my friends/coworkers. In the past couple of years I started a path to better personal health, but last year I couldn't keep it up any longer and gained a lot of weight, etc., and ended up in hospital for monitoring with a pounding heart and high blood pressure.
I hadn't slept properly for a long time prior to that because of my weight gain and stress. That was pretty frightning, cooped up in a heart facility between old and dying people, not knowing if I was heading the same way. I had seen my doctor a bit before that, because I was often tired, dizzy and had a mysterious lump in my throat, for which he offered no explanation, other than high blood pressure. So I started down the road of imagining all sorts of things wrong me me, especially my heart, despite the thorough examination of me had produced no evidence that my heart was giving out or anything like that. And my heart started racing and pounding whenever I just stood up or got startled, which just fed this idea in my head. So I went to my doctor again, and he said I had anxiety, which I for the first long while didn't really believe. He also put me on betablockers, which were almost as scary as all the other stuff I was feeling, especially when a few months back, I started having trouble breathing with a very low pulse.
I'm now kicking the betablockers, I've lost 20kg (and the same or more to go) and started to live a thoroughly healthy life, but it has been hard, and throughout it all I have not felt one bit better, which now leads me to believe that maybe my doctor (whom I stopped seeing just a few weeks ago for a fresh perspective) is right in thinking I'm a very anxious person, despite having never really felt like one.
So here I am, reading what everyone else is going through, and thinking that sounds an awful lot like what I'm feeling.
Hope that wasn't too big a mouthful ;)
-Martin
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Im not insane.. really
I hadn't slept properly for a long time prior to that because of my weight gain and stress. That was pretty frightning, cooped up in a heart facility between old and dying people, not knowing if I was heading the same way. I had seen my doctor a bit before that, because I was often tired, dizzy and had a mysterious lump in my throat, for which he offered no explanation, other than high blood pressure. So I started down the road of imagining all sorts of things wrong me me, especially my heart, despite the thorough examination of me had produced no evidence that my heart was giving out or anything like that. And my heart started racing and pounding whenever I just stood up or got startled, which just fed this idea in my head. So I went to my doctor again, and he said I had anxiety, which I for the first long while didn't really believe. He also put me on betablockers, which were almost as scary as all the other stuff I was feeling, especially when a few months back, I started having trouble breathing with a very low pulse.
I'm now kicking the betablockers, I've lost 20kg (and the same or more to go) and started to live a thoroughly healthy life, but it has been hard, and throughout it all I have not felt one bit better, which now leads me to believe that maybe my doctor (whom I stopped seeing just a few weeks ago for a fresh perspective) is right in thinking I'm a very anxious person, despite having never really felt like one.
So here I am, reading what everyone else is going through, and thinking that sounds an awful lot like what I'm feeling.
Hope that wasn't too big a mouthful ;)
-Martin
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Im not insane.. really