george08
24-11-08, 16:40
Hi all
Let me tell you about the day i had yasterday!
I woke up at 6am with pains down the right side of me (i have cancer of the bones that has spread from some where else!) i then thought that not what has woke me up its the fact that i have terrible cramp! The pains were aches and pains from moving furniture on saturday night (felt a little better). I thought thats it its going to be a good day i have explained to myself why i was hurting but no it progressed from there! Next thing i know in the bath checking for lumps and bumps which i Yep I found a definate lump in my breast (it is that time of month and i know i have lumpy breasts and know i shouldnt check them!) i then went to work! and all day i was thinking i might get my hair done because i dont have cancer!(who thinks like that, im going crazy). any how by the time i finished work! i had convinced my self that i had breast cancer then it was skin cancer(the panic i felt was horrible i just wanted to run away). When i finally got home after visiting my mum! I started thinking how long have i been like this and the truth is always!
Is this my life? when can i begin to live. i am 30 next year and feel that i have wasted most of my life in fear!
Let me tell you about the day i had yasterday!
I woke up at 6am with pains down the right side of me (i have cancer of the bones that has spread from some where else!) i then thought that not what has woke me up its the fact that i have terrible cramp! The pains were aches and pains from moving furniture on saturday night (felt a little better). I thought thats it its going to be a good day i have explained to myself why i was hurting but no it progressed from there! Next thing i know in the bath checking for lumps and bumps which i Yep I found a definate lump in my breast (it is that time of month and i know i have lumpy breasts and know i shouldnt check them!) i then went to work! and all day i was thinking i might get my hair done because i dont have cancer!(who thinks like that, im going crazy). any how by the time i finished work! i had convinced my self that i had breast cancer then it was skin cancer(the panic i felt was horrible i just wanted to run away). When i finally got home after visiting my mum! I started thinking how long have i been like this and the truth is always!
Is this my life? when can i begin to live. i am 30 next year and feel that i have wasted most of my life in fear!