Samantha
06-12-03, 13:09
Hi, my names Sam (a.k.a SLD by some ppl) found this website last week.
Im 15 live in East Anglia doing GCSE's at d mo, been suffering from Social Anxiety and fear of death for about 2 n half years now since my nan died. I think it developed coz i dont let my feelings out n just bottle them up coz i dont feel comfortable talkin bout them 2 ppl in person:(
I dont think i eva grieved for my nan really, as though i neva got to say goodbye i wasnt allowed to go 2 d funeral. I remember cryin wen i woz on me own once and feelin this sense of peace come ova me, n i felt as though God was listening. But im terrified of losing the rest of my family, pets n frinds.
Wen u try n explain 2 sum1 how u feel all they ask is 'have u had ne suicidal feelings?' they dont understand. I wouldn't care if i died as long as i knew my family were safe n together, id do nething 2 protect them, which is why i find it hard to xplain to them how i feel coz i dont wanna upset them [V]
Every time i go some where i am constantly watchin my back n the ppl im with, i just always think something is goin to happen, sum1s gopin 2 try n nick me bad or summin n i feel as though i have to be on my constant guard. Does ne1 else feel like dis.
Sam
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Im 15 live in East Anglia doing GCSE's at d mo, been suffering from Social Anxiety and fear of death for about 2 n half years now since my nan died. I think it developed coz i dont let my feelings out n just bottle them up coz i dont feel comfortable talkin bout them 2 ppl in person:(
I dont think i eva grieved for my nan really, as though i neva got to say goodbye i wasnt allowed to go 2 d funeral. I remember cryin wen i woz on me own once and feelin this sense of peace come ova me, n i felt as though God was listening. But im terrified of losing the rest of my family, pets n frinds.
Wen u try n explain 2 sum1 how u feel all they ask is 'have u had ne suicidal feelings?' they dont understand. I wouldn't care if i died as long as i knew my family were safe n together, id do nething 2 protect them, which is why i find it hard to xplain to them how i feel coz i dont wanna upset them [V]
Every time i go some where i am constantly watchin my back n the ppl im with, i just always think something is goin to happen, sum1s gopin 2 try n nick me bad or summin n i feel as though i have to be on my constant guard. Does ne1 else feel like dis.
Sam
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