rocklover
03-12-08, 15:34
Hi all, the other day I posted that I thought I was having a relapse after returning from Florida. I started feeling better after that and have had a few really good days, however, today i am feeling really stressed.
I am just starting to look for jobs after quitting mine in Sept, and I am finding it all a little scary, even though I feel much better than I did a few months back.
I am also worrying constantly about my relationship of a year and think that I am not good enough for my partner. He has a very busy job and he is quite stressed by it, so as a result we are not seeing much of each other and he seems too have "cooled off" towards me a little. I am as supportive to him as I can be, but I feel guilty for being upset at the way things are because he works so hard and I don't even have a job! I love him so much, just really scared that he doesn't love me anymore. He doesn't know how I feel as I don't want to appear needy or clingy, so I just keep it inside. I seem to be waiting for him to end things with me, like it's a foregone conclusion.
Also, I am just about to complete my divorce, which has been a nightmare, and my husband treats me like an imbecile most of the time. To top all that off, my daughter and I live with my parents as I am broke and sometimes it all gets too much as I hate being dependent and I can feel myself being tetchy towards my Mum and Dad. We are a very close family, but often argue, my sister suffers from depression and I feel guilty for being even more of a burden on my parents with this stupid anxiety.
Christmas will also be dreadful as my daughter will be 80 miles away from me with her dad :weep:. I am sorry for rambling, but just feel so down today and I can feel my anxiety rising as I am beginning to feel more and more sick. Just wish i could fast forward to the new year and everything would magically become ok again.
I am just starting to look for jobs after quitting mine in Sept, and I am finding it all a little scary, even though I feel much better than I did a few months back.
I am also worrying constantly about my relationship of a year and think that I am not good enough for my partner. He has a very busy job and he is quite stressed by it, so as a result we are not seeing much of each other and he seems too have "cooled off" towards me a little. I am as supportive to him as I can be, but I feel guilty for being upset at the way things are because he works so hard and I don't even have a job! I love him so much, just really scared that he doesn't love me anymore. He doesn't know how I feel as I don't want to appear needy or clingy, so I just keep it inside. I seem to be waiting for him to end things with me, like it's a foregone conclusion.
Also, I am just about to complete my divorce, which has been a nightmare, and my husband treats me like an imbecile most of the time. To top all that off, my daughter and I live with my parents as I am broke and sometimes it all gets too much as I hate being dependent and I can feel myself being tetchy towards my Mum and Dad. We are a very close family, but often argue, my sister suffers from depression and I feel guilty for being even more of a burden on my parents with this stupid anxiety.
Christmas will also be dreadful as my daughter will be 80 miles away from me with her dad :weep:. I am sorry for rambling, but just feel so down today and I can feel my anxiety rising as I am beginning to feel more and more sick. Just wish i could fast forward to the new year and everything would magically become ok again.