jenny123
07-12-08, 16:30
Hi everyone
my name is Jenny and I am a married mum of two,I have suffered with depression/anxiety for many years on and off.
I am usually successfully treated with lustral,and my usual trick is to feel fantastic,back to normal,miss a few pills then figure I'm fine without them....see how it goes sort of thing...
Anyway a couple of weeks ago after a few months off the pills and after a lot of stress in my life the black cloud was back...
Always know there is trouble ahead when I start questioning why we are all here?
As soon as this happened I started to take the lustral left over in the cupboard,side effects usually affect me via the bowels (tmi sorry!!) but this time it was the anxiety side effect they warn you about that hit me like a sledge hammer...also felt really detached,like I am not controlling me but instead some outside force is that wants to harm me...
2 weeks on lustral now and I am getting moments off "normal" feelings but I find that after the trauma of anxiety and depression hitting it takes a while to stop thinking of the way it terrified me and made me feel,its like I don't want to stop worrying or feeling afraid as something might sneak up on me to show me there is a reason to feel afraid (that make sense to me if no-one else...)
Anyway thats me there are loads of other things i want to say/ discuss but think it might be more suitable for other threads....
Jenny
my name is Jenny and I am a married mum of two,I have suffered with depression/anxiety for many years on and off.
I am usually successfully treated with lustral,and my usual trick is to feel fantastic,back to normal,miss a few pills then figure I'm fine without them....see how it goes sort of thing...
Anyway a couple of weeks ago after a few months off the pills and after a lot of stress in my life the black cloud was back...
Always know there is trouble ahead when I start questioning why we are all here?
As soon as this happened I started to take the lustral left over in the cupboard,side effects usually affect me via the bowels (tmi sorry!!) but this time it was the anxiety side effect they warn you about that hit me like a sledge hammer...also felt really detached,like I am not controlling me but instead some outside force is that wants to harm me...
2 weeks on lustral now and I am getting moments off "normal" feelings but I find that after the trauma of anxiety and depression hitting it takes a while to stop thinking of the way it terrified me and made me feel,its like I don't want to stop worrying or feeling afraid as something might sneak up on me to show me there is a reason to feel afraid (that make sense to me if no-one else...)
Anyway thats me there are loads of other things i want to say/ discuss but think it might be more suitable for other threads....
Jenny