Hercy
07-12-08, 16:47
Hello,
I'm Jo and I'm new to the forum although I have been viewing the info on here for a while.
I have suffered from anxiety since Feb 08 with fluctuating panic symptoms.
It started when I started having dizzy spells and blocked sinuses/rhinitis. I felt so awful, I thought I had a brain tumor or I was having a stroke. I went to the doctor who gave me antibiotics. 2 weeks later I was no better and went back to the doctor after 3 days off work. By this time I'd worked myself into such a state I had a panic attack in the doctor's waiting room (I was convinced I was going to be rushed to hospital, I'd not spoken to my parents, I was obviously going to die etc). Luckily the doctor was very sympathetic and told me I was having panic attacks.
Fast forward 10 months and despite referals to ENT and pretty much every nasal spray/drops going I do not feel better.
The last week has been awful again, the panic attacks have returned and I am experiencing feelings of not being here, not being myself etc.
I seem to have strange thoughts that don't really represent me, e.g. I met my cousin's baby for the first time and was so excited, yet a voice in my head kept saying 'what if you hurt it'? etc...I've no idea why!!
I went back to my new gp last week who was lovely, I told him about all my feelings and sat there crying. He said I am suffering from anxiety and possibly with mild depression so presribed my 10mg Clomipromine.
I have started taking them and was wiped out for 2 days but now I feel more comfortable, but the anxiety is definitely there.
I feel as though I am stuck, I cannot look forward at the moment despite always looking forward in the past.
I've always been a worrier and a 'what if' person, but it now seems to control me. I don't want this to be my life but I am being sucked in by it...I don't want to be here in 5 years time taking more and more medication whilst trying to find the 'old me'!
Thanks for reading!!
Jo xxx
I'm Jo and I'm new to the forum although I have been viewing the info on here for a while.
I have suffered from anxiety since Feb 08 with fluctuating panic symptoms.
It started when I started having dizzy spells and blocked sinuses/rhinitis. I felt so awful, I thought I had a brain tumor or I was having a stroke. I went to the doctor who gave me antibiotics. 2 weeks later I was no better and went back to the doctor after 3 days off work. By this time I'd worked myself into such a state I had a panic attack in the doctor's waiting room (I was convinced I was going to be rushed to hospital, I'd not spoken to my parents, I was obviously going to die etc). Luckily the doctor was very sympathetic and told me I was having panic attacks.
Fast forward 10 months and despite referals to ENT and pretty much every nasal spray/drops going I do not feel better.
The last week has been awful again, the panic attacks have returned and I am experiencing feelings of not being here, not being myself etc.
I seem to have strange thoughts that don't really represent me, e.g. I met my cousin's baby for the first time and was so excited, yet a voice in my head kept saying 'what if you hurt it'? etc...I've no idea why!!
I went back to my new gp last week who was lovely, I told him about all my feelings and sat there crying. He said I am suffering from anxiety and possibly with mild depression so presribed my 10mg Clomipromine.
I have started taking them and was wiped out for 2 days but now I feel more comfortable, but the anxiety is definitely there.
I feel as though I am stuck, I cannot look forward at the moment despite always looking forward in the past.
I've always been a worrier and a 'what if' person, but it now seems to control me. I don't want this to be my life but I am being sucked in by it...I don't want to be here in 5 years time taking more and more medication whilst trying to find the 'old me'!
Thanks for reading!!
Jo xxx