redballoons
08-12-08, 16:54
hi
I run a busniness with two other people. Today they were supposed to be coming around for a few hours this evening just for a chat about things - stock etc etc.
Anyway I have had an awful day, both "normal person" wise and anxiety wise and on the spur of the moment and in the middle of one of my waves of panic that I get I called them and asked to rearrange.
My son HAS been ill all day BUT - he is two he will curl up on my lap and sleep even if they do come so really that was no excuse and I know it.
I feel so bad now, like I have just failed totally. In a way i wish i could just call them up and say hey forget it come over - but these are people I run a business with and I cant explain to them about panic attacks etc as they trust me with alot of their money and when I am doing things like that I am alot more confident so I dont want to risk our relationship over stupid panic attacks. I already look like the one holding things up because of my kids which I know most people without kids hate :weep:
At the same time one part of me says - these are important choices to be talked about I need to be calm and relaxed to do it.
anyway my long rambling point is that do you ever cancel things because of anxiety and then regret it.
sophie
I run a busniness with two other people. Today they were supposed to be coming around for a few hours this evening just for a chat about things - stock etc etc.
Anyway I have had an awful day, both "normal person" wise and anxiety wise and on the spur of the moment and in the middle of one of my waves of panic that I get I called them and asked to rearrange.
My son HAS been ill all day BUT - he is two he will curl up on my lap and sleep even if they do come so really that was no excuse and I know it.
I feel so bad now, like I have just failed totally. In a way i wish i could just call them up and say hey forget it come over - but these are people I run a business with and I cant explain to them about panic attacks etc as they trust me with alot of their money and when I am doing things like that I am alot more confident so I dont want to risk our relationship over stupid panic attacks. I already look like the one holding things up because of my kids which I know most people without kids hate :weep:
At the same time one part of me says - these are important choices to be talked about I need to be calm and relaxed to do it.
anyway my long rambling point is that do you ever cancel things because of anxiety and then regret it.
sophie