rosduk
10-12-08, 20:07
Hi everyone,
I'm Anna, a new member. I have struggling with panic attacks on and off for 3 years now. I say on and off as I managed to shake them after the first year through CBT and some very hard emotional work but a stressful year has brought them back and seem to be alot worse.
It all started with just panic attacks although now I have awful health anxiety and more recently cannot be left alone. I am spending one or two nights at least alone each week at the moment and spend the whole time terrified to the pit of my stomach. Even when someone is in the house I have sometimes even feared going into a bathroom on my own incase i faint or die...
What frustrates me the most is when I am rational I am aware of the process that is happening within my body, the flight or fight, how this all works and yet when I am having a panic attack I forget it all and every one I have is getting that bit more frightening, especially as I am avoiding situations that have made me panic before.
I hate leaving the house, I always make myself leave as I have to, not only to work but otherwise I would never ever leave -often panicking at work and having to fight back all the terror and tears that are building up each day.
I am currently taking diazepam on a random basis when i need it. Never more than 2mg at a time and not every day - although I cant seem to go to work without taking one at the moment. I have been given citralopram to start on but I am worried it will make me feel worse and panic more than I already do as I need to work to live!
Anyway, seeing other peoples experiences does give me some relief as I am often terrified that I am going nuts. It seems strange to me that not a day goes by that I think I will die from panic sypmtoms and yet I have panicked every day for the last year and survived! :wacko:
xxx
I'm Anna, a new member. I have struggling with panic attacks on and off for 3 years now. I say on and off as I managed to shake them after the first year through CBT and some very hard emotional work but a stressful year has brought them back and seem to be alot worse.
It all started with just panic attacks although now I have awful health anxiety and more recently cannot be left alone. I am spending one or two nights at least alone each week at the moment and spend the whole time terrified to the pit of my stomach. Even when someone is in the house I have sometimes even feared going into a bathroom on my own incase i faint or die...
What frustrates me the most is when I am rational I am aware of the process that is happening within my body, the flight or fight, how this all works and yet when I am having a panic attack I forget it all and every one I have is getting that bit more frightening, especially as I am avoiding situations that have made me panic before.
I hate leaving the house, I always make myself leave as I have to, not only to work but otherwise I would never ever leave -often panicking at work and having to fight back all the terror and tears that are building up each day.
I am currently taking diazepam on a random basis when i need it. Never more than 2mg at a time and not every day - although I cant seem to go to work without taking one at the moment. I have been given citralopram to start on but I am worried it will make me feel worse and panic more than I already do as I need to work to live!
Anyway, seeing other peoples experiences does give me some relief as I am often terrified that I am going nuts. It seems strange to me that not a day goes by that I think I will die from panic sypmtoms and yet I have panicked every day for the last year and survived! :wacko:
xxx