lily18
14-12-08, 16:04
I'm 18 years old and I thought I should introduce myself as I'm new here.
I suffer from depression and anxiety symptoms, mostly characterised by shaking, shortness of breath, lack of appetite, night sweats, constantly feeling low etc etc. I also found that I needed to see a specialist after I just did not have the motivation for my schoolwork, which is really vital this year as I need to get my grades for university.
4 years ago my mum died and of course it had a huge impact on me, but I seem to have suffered more than my siblings and the rest of my family. I have really bad insomnia and constantly have the feeling that I overthink things. I have had an eating disorder and I have realised why, I crave control over myself and I feel that I had no control over my mums death, yet I can have control over my weight. I have found myself becoming restless and rebelling from everyone and everything, my teachers are becoming more and more agitated as I now have no excuses as to why I haven't done a particular piece of work, because I don't know either. I sit at my desk and stare at a piece of paper and the answers just don't come.
I went to see a psychiatrist for an evaluation and was given a prescription for Fluoxetine yet also some 'tranquilisers' for the first 2 weeks that apparently the F needs to work. Yet now I'm supposed to stop taking the tranquilisers but I find it so hard because I get such weird side effects from just the Fluoxetine, yet when I take the two combined I feel better, happier even. Apparently the tranquilisers are addictive, which worries me as I feel that if I carry on taking them I won't ever be able to stop especially as I have a vulnerability to addictions and I have been addicted to other things.
I now see a therapist every month to talk over the issues that I still have surrounding my mum's passing.
I'm sorry if I rambled! I'm really looking to talk to people in similar situations to me so thankyou for reading.
I suffer from depression and anxiety symptoms, mostly characterised by shaking, shortness of breath, lack of appetite, night sweats, constantly feeling low etc etc. I also found that I needed to see a specialist after I just did not have the motivation for my schoolwork, which is really vital this year as I need to get my grades for university.
4 years ago my mum died and of course it had a huge impact on me, but I seem to have suffered more than my siblings and the rest of my family. I have really bad insomnia and constantly have the feeling that I overthink things. I have had an eating disorder and I have realised why, I crave control over myself and I feel that I had no control over my mums death, yet I can have control over my weight. I have found myself becoming restless and rebelling from everyone and everything, my teachers are becoming more and more agitated as I now have no excuses as to why I haven't done a particular piece of work, because I don't know either. I sit at my desk and stare at a piece of paper and the answers just don't come.
I went to see a psychiatrist for an evaluation and was given a prescription for Fluoxetine yet also some 'tranquilisers' for the first 2 weeks that apparently the F needs to work. Yet now I'm supposed to stop taking the tranquilisers but I find it so hard because I get such weird side effects from just the Fluoxetine, yet when I take the two combined I feel better, happier even. Apparently the tranquilisers are addictive, which worries me as I feel that if I carry on taking them I won't ever be able to stop especially as I have a vulnerability to addictions and I have been addicted to other things.
I now see a therapist every month to talk over the issues that I still have surrounding my mum's passing.
I'm sorry if I rambled! I'm really looking to talk to people in similar situations to me so thankyou for reading.