mayuk
15-12-08, 00:59
Hi i am really pleased i found this site and i am looking forward to making lots of new friends looking for comforting chats about my anxious moments which are quite frequent.
It all started 20 years ago i desparatly wanted a baby with my husband i feared rejection it sent me in to a terrible panic sleepless nights worried all the time .I feared my husbands family would reject the idea of ivf , i had a low hormone problem. After a year of keepng my worries to my self it developed into lack of confidence and mixed anxiety. I was given meds and then therapy the doctor told me i had to face my husband and tell him i needed the ivf treatment well after all the anxiety i did just that and he agreed he did not realize i was keeping this inside for so long. My problem solved....was it no not at all.Here we go i worried about my pregnancy if i did not feel the baby move then i scared myself about the delivery.The pregnancy was healthy full term and normal, we had a beautiful baby boy he is now 14 and he is great. now i can scare my self about anything if i have a spot on my leg in my mouth any where i think im suffering from something awful. if hair falls out in the shower(normal amount) im worried ect ect, i will then go look it up on the net look so deep into it until i convince my self something awful is wrong with me. :scared15: whilst im reading i can feel the pins and needles in my arms and a sweat come over me then i will shut it off go to bed toss and turn wake up the next day and go back and look again.:whistles: . i rember once i thought i had a thyroid problem it was nothing i made my self nuts.My husband is very sweet he always says no theres nothing there you just worried over nothing....what is this nothing :huh: i am so scared of illness its unbelievable...anyone here can give me advise i would really really be happy.It took quite a bit of time for me to register here.I believe i have crossed one bridge by sharing this with you all...now i need to fix this...please respond..
Thankyou
May
It all started 20 years ago i desparatly wanted a baby with my husband i feared rejection it sent me in to a terrible panic sleepless nights worried all the time .I feared my husbands family would reject the idea of ivf , i had a low hormone problem. After a year of keepng my worries to my self it developed into lack of confidence and mixed anxiety. I was given meds and then therapy the doctor told me i had to face my husband and tell him i needed the ivf treatment well after all the anxiety i did just that and he agreed he did not realize i was keeping this inside for so long. My problem solved....was it no not at all.Here we go i worried about my pregnancy if i did not feel the baby move then i scared myself about the delivery.The pregnancy was healthy full term and normal, we had a beautiful baby boy he is now 14 and he is great. now i can scare my self about anything if i have a spot on my leg in my mouth any where i think im suffering from something awful. if hair falls out in the shower(normal amount) im worried ect ect, i will then go look it up on the net look so deep into it until i convince my self something awful is wrong with me. :scared15: whilst im reading i can feel the pins and needles in my arms and a sweat come over me then i will shut it off go to bed toss and turn wake up the next day and go back and look again.:whistles: . i rember once i thought i had a thyroid problem it was nothing i made my self nuts.My husband is very sweet he always says no theres nothing there you just worried over nothing....what is this nothing :huh: i am so scared of illness its unbelievable...anyone here can give me advise i would really really be happy.It took quite a bit of time for me to register here.I believe i have crossed one bridge by sharing this with you all...now i need to fix this...please respond..
Thankyou
May