Anzie2008
15-12-08, 23:46
Hi all,
Does anyone else find that with their anxiety, they have really erratic moods?! Last week was a pretty good week for me, the intrusive thoughts I'd been suffering with seemed to calm down a lot, and I felt much more in control and happy, my mood was much better. The weekend was pretty good too.
Today has just not been a good day. School was really boring. And when I get bored, I get anxious and moody for some reason... I don't like having nothing to do or nothing to think about- mainly because that's when my anxiety takes hold!! But I just felt "out of it" all day, if anyone understands what I mean. Like I was there, but I wasn't engaging properly with anything or anybody and I wasn't really thinking about what I was saying to people. It was horrible:weep:
And then I came home & tried to do some homework, and that didn't go down too well either. My concentration was really low and I just ended up getting so upset & angry. And when I'm like that, I start thinking about all the bad stuff that has happened in the past year... it sounds terrible but it's like self pity.
So I was in a terrible mood, kept crying and feeling really angry and stuff, so I decided to go and have a shower & wsh my hair, and although I was still initially quite upset, after like 5 minutes in the shower, I wasn't even crying anymore and I seemed to feel normal again. And then I felt really freaked out because one minute I'd been ridiculously low and upset, and the next I felt quite calm and collected !!!!! :huh: What the heck is that about?! It creeped me out, I was like "oh my God you're a psycho, you're going mad, you're possessed or something"!! My moods are so erratic, they change from one minute to the next I swear. I feel like such a weirdo right now... :mad: It's just been such an awful day !!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so annoyed because I felt so much better last week & the weekend wasn't bad either, but Mondays always seem to be a bad day for me. :wacko: It's ridiculous, I feel like such a fool.
Sorry, had to rant xxxx
Does anyone else find that with their anxiety, they have really erratic moods?! Last week was a pretty good week for me, the intrusive thoughts I'd been suffering with seemed to calm down a lot, and I felt much more in control and happy, my mood was much better. The weekend was pretty good too.
Today has just not been a good day. School was really boring. And when I get bored, I get anxious and moody for some reason... I don't like having nothing to do or nothing to think about- mainly because that's when my anxiety takes hold!! But I just felt "out of it" all day, if anyone understands what I mean. Like I was there, but I wasn't engaging properly with anything or anybody and I wasn't really thinking about what I was saying to people. It was horrible:weep:
And then I came home & tried to do some homework, and that didn't go down too well either. My concentration was really low and I just ended up getting so upset & angry. And when I'm like that, I start thinking about all the bad stuff that has happened in the past year... it sounds terrible but it's like self pity.
So I was in a terrible mood, kept crying and feeling really angry and stuff, so I decided to go and have a shower & wsh my hair, and although I was still initially quite upset, after like 5 minutes in the shower, I wasn't even crying anymore and I seemed to feel normal again. And then I felt really freaked out because one minute I'd been ridiculously low and upset, and the next I felt quite calm and collected !!!!! :huh: What the heck is that about?! It creeped me out, I was like "oh my God you're a psycho, you're going mad, you're possessed or something"!! My moods are so erratic, they change from one minute to the next I swear. I feel like such a weirdo right now... :mad: It's just been such an awful day !!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so annoyed because I felt so much better last week & the weekend wasn't bad either, but Mondays always seem to be a bad day for me. :wacko: It's ridiculous, I feel like such a fool.
Sorry, had to rant xxxx