thoughts and actions
16-12-08, 12:42
hi guys
Just bit fed up really
Am back at work 3 months on (after 3 months off long term)
I am enjoyign being back at work (some days are hard but more good)
Before, i was on verge of being agrophobic- i have done so well in coming this far through claire weekes, cbt etc.
My life now though consists of work n on my days off maybe going shopping or visting a friend
However- i want more (no that may sound selfish) but i wanna be able to go out to the pub (not nec get drunk but just dance and socialise) wanna be able to go to the cinema, out for dinner, even bowling, even A DATE :scared15: - without thinking am going to pass out. vomit or die :shrug:
I feel like i am slightly agrophobic coz i still have boundaries- i feel that if i can crack these am goin get better
i hate the fact that all my friends are going out for their xmas nites out, lunches dinners etc and i even hate the thought of eating a mince pie in work (i dont really like eatin in public)
Anyone have any tips or advise
Just feel like if i dont start pushing meslf again am going to go backwards
thansk for listening
xx
Just bit fed up really
Am back at work 3 months on (after 3 months off long term)
I am enjoyign being back at work (some days are hard but more good)
Before, i was on verge of being agrophobic- i have done so well in coming this far through claire weekes, cbt etc.
My life now though consists of work n on my days off maybe going shopping or visting a friend
However- i want more (no that may sound selfish) but i wanna be able to go out to the pub (not nec get drunk but just dance and socialise) wanna be able to go to the cinema, out for dinner, even bowling, even A DATE :scared15: - without thinking am going to pass out. vomit or die :shrug:
I feel like i am slightly agrophobic coz i still have boundaries- i feel that if i can crack these am goin get better
i hate the fact that all my friends are going out for their xmas nites out, lunches dinners etc and i even hate the thought of eating a mince pie in work (i dont really like eatin in public)
Anyone have any tips or advise
Just feel like if i dont start pushing meslf again am going to go backwards
thansk for listening
xx