auxano
22-12-08, 08:01
Hi all,
I am so glad to find this forum. There are others out there who suffer anxiety!
I don't know where to post but I want to tell my story and see if I can get some advice or help.
2 years ago I needed surgery to have my gall bladder removed. I became rather worried about surgery and the fact that maybe I wouldn't fall asleep and would feel it. That seemed rather weird to me because I have always thought of myself as "sensible, balanced, "normal"....:D . anyway I had the surgery and woke up feeling awful. I had expected to be bouncing the following day and was shocked to wake up after my first night feeling just horrid. I felt ill. This continued for weeks. I seemed to go to and from the GP Drs alot. She did all tests possible to see what was wrong. I suffered diarrhea, feeling ill every morning (fine in afternoons).
During this time I really lost confidence. I started to feel nervous going out incase I had a bout of diarrhea. If my stomach felt gripey I would feel paniced. I also had a couple of bouts of dizziness - very random - I would wake up in the middle of the night with the room spinning.
Then I started to feel paniced shopping in a supermarket. When I logically thought it through I would say the reason was "I don't feel 100% well, what if I get dizzy?" I would force myself to continue and talked myself through the situation.
The diarrhea eventually stopped. I think this was related directly to no gall bladder. But the dizziness had scared me so much that I was constantly afraid it would happen again.
Over the past year I have woken with the dizziness once more. It stops as soon as I sit up but the response I have to it is shear PANIC. Looking back I wonder if it is positional - the way I lay at night which is causing it.
Because of the dizziness I now am left with a horrible fear. Sometimes when driving in the car if I look down and then up and get that weird feeling of motion the SURGE OF FEAR rushes through me.
My question is - WHY does this happen? I logically tell myself "it's OK, it's normal movement" but why do I continue to get the surge of panic and fear -adenalin run through me? I can't see how I will ever get rid of it.
Even if I think of the word DIZZINESS I feel the panic and adrenalin.
Will it ever leave me?
Please help me, I just want to be normal again without fear and panic.
I don't actually have a panic attack, I just feel that surge of fear rush through me and I am able to work through it in my head.
Thanks
I am so glad to find this forum. There are others out there who suffer anxiety!
I don't know where to post but I want to tell my story and see if I can get some advice or help.
2 years ago I needed surgery to have my gall bladder removed. I became rather worried about surgery and the fact that maybe I wouldn't fall asleep and would feel it. That seemed rather weird to me because I have always thought of myself as "sensible, balanced, "normal"....:D . anyway I had the surgery and woke up feeling awful. I had expected to be bouncing the following day and was shocked to wake up after my first night feeling just horrid. I felt ill. This continued for weeks. I seemed to go to and from the GP Drs alot. She did all tests possible to see what was wrong. I suffered diarrhea, feeling ill every morning (fine in afternoons).
During this time I really lost confidence. I started to feel nervous going out incase I had a bout of diarrhea. If my stomach felt gripey I would feel paniced. I also had a couple of bouts of dizziness - very random - I would wake up in the middle of the night with the room spinning.
Then I started to feel paniced shopping in a supermarket. When I logically thought it through I would say the reason was "I don't feel 100% well, what if I get dizzy?" I would force myself to continue and talked myself through the situation.
The diarrhea eventually stopped. I think this was related directly to no gall bladder. But the dizziness had scared me so much that I was constantly afraid it would happen again.
Over the past year I have woken with the dizziness once more. It stops as soon as I sit up but the response I have to it is shear PANIC. Looking back I wonder if it is positional - the way I lay at night which is causing it.
Because of the dizziness I now am left with a horrible fear. Sometimes when driving in the car if I look down and then up and get that weird feeling of motion the SURGE OF FEAR rushes through me.
My question is - WHY does this happen? I logically tell myself "it's OK, it's normal movement" but why do I continue to get the surge of panic and fear -adenalin run through me? I can't see how I will ever get rid of it.
Even if I think of the word DIZZINESS I feel the panic and adrenalin.
Will it ever leave me?
Please help me, I just want to be normal again without fear and panic.
I don't actually have a panic attack, I just feel that surge of fear rush through me and I am able to work through it in my head.
Thanks