clickaway
28-06-05, 17:40
Hi all,
My life at the moment seems to be like a row of London Buses in Oxford Street – looks like they may be overheating and I’m trying to avoid calling the mechanic out. But the street seems to be plagued by roadworks. Read On!
Two or three months ago I just had one highlight a week – a visit to my psychotherapist. I was really low then and could not do very much. I have got a lot better since then although I’m still having blips and at the moment I’m quite vulnerable to going down, but that’s hardly surprising.
During the current 21 day period, I’ve only had about five days where I have not had some kind of firm ‘appointment’, so this has been good for my socialising and getting some kind of structure going. During this period I’ve been to Belgium (4 days), attending farewell’s at my old workplace (3), seeing therapists (3), dinner with friends (2), working in shop (2) and meeting Dad (1). I’ve even had to turn down a trip to Lincolnshire on Friday as its clashing with a meal with an internet friend from the USA!
This is all very well, but I have other things going on in the background which are not helping. My mum is now very frail and on my last visit to see her, she spent the whole time asleep - I think I’m starting to grieve for her already.
Then there is my house and my road. My curtain rail fell down and I needed it re-fixed. As I also needed the kitchen ceiling repaired, I called in a retired master builder who does ‘odd-jobs’. What seems to be a relatively easy job for many turned out to be a prolonged saga – after two months my curtain rail has failed twice – my builder even broke a couple of ribs in between visits! It is still not fixed and this 'little' thing is really bugging me.
As for my street, well they’ve been renewing the gas mains for six weeks and its been like living on a building site – they’ve now migrated to the roundabout at the top of my road so the mayhem is still there.
Whilst digging the holes, the gas guys managed to cut off my electricity and of course at one stage the gas too. When they turned the gas back on, my boiler didn’t work and so had to get that repaired!
Then lo and behold I looked out of my front window yesterday and saw water gushing out of the pavement and flowing down the road – yes, the water main had collapsed! I was chatting to some neighbours who said “Well, you have a telegraph pole right outside your house, so watch out!”
Well, ironically enough, there was a BT engineer on top of that pole this morning, but fingers crossed I think the lines are still intact!
So Thursday, I eventually have my farewell presentation at work – I officially left in January after prolonged sick leave. I’ve been there 34 years and am going this week ‘under cover’ of two other colleagues – it makes me feel more comfortable than had I have to be there on my own.
So its no wonder I’m a bit shakey at the moment – but fortunately I can laugh some of this off.
Have you read up to here? Oh well done you – you are very patient!
Take Care,
Ray
Don't wait around for other people to be happy for you. Any happiness you get you've got to make yourself.--Alice Walker
My life at the moment seems to be like a row of London Buses in Oxford Street – looks like they may be overheating and I’m trying to avoid calling the mechanic out. But the street seems to be plagued by roadworks. Read On!
Two or three months ago I just had one highlight a week – a visit to my psychotherapist. I was really low then and could not do very much. I have got a lot better since then although I’m still having blips and at the moment I’m quite vulnerable to going down, but that’s hardly surprising.
During the current 21 day period, I’ve only had about five days where I have not had some kind of firm ‘appointment’, so this has been good for my socialising and getting some kind of structure going. During this period I’ve been to Belgium (4 days), attending farewell’s at my old workplace (3), seeing therapists (3), dinner with friends (2), working in shop (2) and meeting Dad (1). I’ve even had to turn down a trip to Lincolnshire on Friday as its clashing with a meal with an internet friend from the USA!
This is all very well, but I have other things going on in the background which are not helping. My mum is now very frail and on my last visit to see her, she spent the whole time asleep - I think I’m starting to grieve for her already.
Then there is my house and my road. My curtain rail fell down and I needed it re-fixed. As I also needed the kitchen ceiling repaired, I called in a retired master builder who does ‘odd-jobs’. What seems to be a relatively easy job for many turned out to be a prolonged saga – after two months my curtain rail has failed twice – my builder even broke a couple of ribs in between visits! It is still not fixed and this 'little' thing is really bugging me.
As for my street, well they’ve been renewing the gas mains for six weeks and its been like living on a building site – they’ve now migrated to the roundabout at the top of my road so the mayhem is still there.
Whilst digging the holes, the gas guys managed to cut off my electricity and of course at one stage the gas too. When they turned the gas back on, my boiler didn’t work and so had to get that repaired!
Then lo and behold I looked out of my front window yesterday and saw water gushing out of the pavement and flowing down the road – yes, the water main had collapsed! I was chatting to some neighbours who said “Well, you have a telegraph pole right outside your house, so watch out!”
Well, ironically enough, there was a BT engineer on top of that pole this morning, but fingers crossed I think the lines are still intact!
So Thursday, I eventually have my farewell presentation at work – I officially left in January after prolonged sick leave. I’ve been there 34 years and am going this week ‘under cover’ of two other colleagues – it makes me feel more comfortable than had I have to be there on my own.
So its no wonder I’m a bit shakey at the moment – but fortunately I can laugh some of this off.
Have you read up to here? Oh well done you – you are very patient!
Take Care,
Ray
Don't wait around for other people to be happy for you. Any happiness you get you've got to make yourself.--Alice Walker