Mcched
29-06-05, 10:15
Hi Everyone
My name is Nikki and I live in the north of England. I had a major panic attack back in mid march of this year, whilst driving and it scared the hell out of me. Thus I now can't drive and I've always been a confident driver. I try to drive but I get an overwhelming fear of doom and that I may not beable to see properly and that I might crash.
Previous to the attack I was under alot of stress. I felt that I worked my socks off for little reward and praise. I worked 12 hour days and loved my job but because my senior manager had left in December they couldn't appraise my performance for the last year and thats when I started to get angry. Then my nan died in the same week and I ploughed myself into work so as to mask the pain. The funeral was great and it was her day as she had planned and paid for the day years before. Then it was my birthday so I had to come back up north as I had friends staying and the fortnight was an erratic blur. (Sorry to go on)
So I was on a first aid course and all was well. Then on the Friday after a visist to town BANG I was hit with the panic attack only three blocks away from where I live. After that I didn't feel safe out on my own. I went to the Docs who offered anti-depressants, which I declined and took KALMS instead. I was off work for 10 weeks. If I was with someone then I can go out and have fun. If I have to go out on my own then I panic and get filled with anxiety. I feel like I can't control my thoughts or body.
I managed to go back to work but getting the tram into work everyday really stressed me. Then once back at work nothing had changed, work had piled up and I coped but felt apprehensive when I had to get the tram home. I was worried that I might pass out on the tram.
I am now off work again as I felt really anxious going to work after a holiday. I feel anxious on my own and don't know why. I am now trying St Johns Wort and my doc has sent me for blood tests. I am also in the process of getting a counsellor.
I just want my life back!!!!!
Sorry to drone on but I needed to get it off my chest
Nikki :([Sigh...]
My name is Nikki and I live in the north of England. I had a major panic attack back in mid march of this year, whilst driving and it scared the hell out of me. Thus I now can't drive and I've always been a confident driver. I try to drive but I get an overwhelming fear of doom and that I may not beable to see properly and that I might crash.
Previous to the attack I was under alot of stress. I felt that I worked my socks off for little reward and praise. I worked 12 hour days and loved my job but because my senior manager had left in December they couldn't appraise my performance for the last year and thats when I started to get angry. Then my nan died in the same week and I ploughed myself into work so as to mask the pain. The funeral was great and it was her day as she had planned and paid for the day years before. Then it was my birthday so I had to come back up north as I had friends staying and the fortnight was an erratic blur. (Sorry to go on)
So I was on a first aid course and all was well. Then on the Friday after a visist to town BANG I was hit with the panic attack only three blocks away from where I live. After that I didn't feel safe out on my own. I went to the Docs who offered anti-depressants, which I declined and took KALMS instead. I was off work for 10 weeks. If I was with someone then I can go out and have fun. If I have to go out on my own then I panic and get filled with anxiety. I feel like I can't control my thoughts or body.
I managed to go back to work but getting the tram into work everyday really stressed me. Then once back at work nothing had changed, work had piled up and I coped but felt apprehensive when I had to get the tram home. I was worried that I might pass out on the tram.
I am now off work again as I felt really anxious going to work after a holiday. I feel anxious on my own and don't know why. I am now trying St Johns Wort and my doc has sent me for blood tests. I am also in the process of getting a counsellor.
I just want my life back!!!!!
Sorry to drone on but I needed to get it off my chest
Nikki :([Sigh...]