andie73
29-12-08, 07:11
Hi Guys
I found out on Christmas day that I am pregnant. Since then I have been ill with a really bad cold. I am sooo drowsy most of the time but am then gripped by a wave of panic. I was happy on Christmas Day when I found out I was pregnant but have been in a state since.
I have tocophoia and emmetephobia, which is fear of pregnancy and being sick. I just don't know how I am going to cope. This was planned and is has taken 18 mths to get pregnant as I would often avoid my husband at my most fertile times. I have said a few times to my hubby and dad and step mum that I don't want this baby and that I feel like there's an alien inside of me. They of course were horrified at my reaction to being pregnant. But I can't help it. I sooo badly want children but my health anx and fears make this seem such an impossible task.
I am so frightened of morning sickness. I know that not everyone gets it, and I don't feel sick at the moment but I am gripped with terror about it. I keep waking up through the night and saying "no,no I can't do this" to my hubby. He reassures me the best he can but inside I am terrified. The day after Boxing Day I cried so much I had red marks under my eyes that have only just faded.
The fact that I have a really bad cold is not helping. I woke up sweating last night, the bed was soaking wet. It panicked me, lke everything else in life!!! My hubby was very understanding but he has now had a bad night sleep, and has just left for work. I really begged him not to leave me but he had no choice. I am supposed to be at work today too, but I just don't feel well enough.
Why can't I be normal and be glad that I am pregnant, accept that I may get some sickness but that it will pass, and that I have a cold right now that will also get better and just settle down on the sofa and relax. Why do I feel as if something dreadful is going to happen?? Please help cos I am really low and really really scared.
I found out on Christmas day that I am pregnant. Since then I have been ill with a really bad cold. I am sooo drowsy most of the time but am then gripped by a wave of panic. I was happy on Christmas Day when I found out I was pregnant but have been in a state since.
I have tocophoia and emmetephobia, which is fear of pregnancy and being sick. I just don't know how I am going to cope. This was planned and is has taken 18 mths to get pregnant as I would often avoid my husband at my most fertile times. I have said a few times to my hubby and dad and step mum that I don't want this baby and that I feel like there's an alien inside of me. They of course were horrified at my reaction to being pregnant. But I can't help it. I sooo badly want children but my health anx and fears make this seem such an impossible task.
I am so frightened of morning sickness. I know that not everyone gets it, and I don't feel sick at the moment but I am gripped with terror about it. I keep waking up through the night and saying "no,no I can't do this" to my hubby. He reassures me the best he can but inside I am terrified. The day after Boxing Day I cried so much I had red marks under my eyes that have only just faded.
The fact that I have a really bad cold is not helping. I woke up sweating last night, the bed was soaking wet. It panicked me, lke everything else in life!!! My hubby was very understanding but he has now had a bad night sleep, and has just left for work. I really begged him not to leave me but he had no choice. I am supposed to be at work today too, but I just don't feel well enough.
Why can't I be normal and be glad that I am pregnant, accept that I may get some sickness but that it will pass, and that I have a cold right now that will also get better and just settle down on the sofa and relax. Why do I feel as if something dreadful is going to happen?? Please help cos I am really low and really really scared.