psycho2000
30-06-05, 10:15
Morning all,
Well, not having a very good morning today. Probably because I wasn't feeling very good in the cinema yesterday afternoon!!
To cut a long story short, I went to the movies yesterday afternoon with my gf to see batman begins. Even when I was walking there, I started to feel breathless and getting anxious cause it was raining and thundery (yes, I'm a bit scared of lighning :D)...so all that combined meant that I was starting to feel very anxious and chest and throat was tight etc with anxiety.
So when we finally reached the cinema and sat ourselves in our seats, I was breathing shallowly, hyperventilating, but I didn't get any Panic attacks...my heart was beating normal...it was only my breathing which was shallow.
I wanted every minute to go out and get fresh air ( u know how it's all dark in the cinema and the special effcts are very loud), but I kept saying give it 5 more mins, give it 5 more mins, you know it will pass.
It did, after 20 mins or so, which meant I couldn't properly concentrate on the movie during that time. Oh well, it was a good movie so I might see it again :D
And then after that, I was feeling better. It's kinda very obvious: first 20 mins I felt all tensed up, anxious, bundle of nerves, breathing shallowly and fast, and then after 25 mins, I felt my chest and throat relax, my mood increased. And i could finally enjoy the movie.
You know, I hate to be nasty to my gf when this happens cause my mood is not good then, and sometimes I might tell her something I might regret. But I keep telling her, please understand me ok, you know how I feel so I never mean to be rude. It's just that this condition makes me easily irritated and annoyed at times :(
Anyway, all through the evening yesterday I was then more or less fine to 99%. I enjoyed the rest of the day.
But this morning, I'm again a bundle of nerves. Feel anxious, tight in the chest, throat muscles tight etc lol. But I know my mind tells me it's fine, don't worry it will pass. I keep calling my gf at work cause I feel much better when I talk to someone, my gf who at least knows of my condition. She does try her best to help me.
And to be honest I'm now more relaxed as I'm writing this and after calling my gf like three times so far :D. Anyway...I'm waiting for something to come through the post, then I'll have a nap cause I feel tired and lack of sleep.
I think the thing which tensed me up this morning is I started asking myself if I'm starting to become asthmatic, cause the symptoms are a bit similar, like tight chest, tight throat muscles. But no wheezing, no difficulty sleeping (i sleep VERY well indeed :D :) ), hmm, I can walk fast, run and not feel extremely breathless (I'm an ex smoker, stopped 1 month ago so I guess it's normal for me to feel a bit breathless). But I don't know, what do people think? Just need some reassurance, then I will feel much much better about it.
Cheers all for listening to my ramblings :) Have a nice day. I might post again later.
Sam.
One day, one day I will beat u and that day, I will be free again, as I was before...
Well, not having a very good morning today. Probably because I wasn't feeling very good in the cinema yesterday afternoon!!
To cut a long story short, I went to the movies yesterday afternoon with my gf to see batman begins. Even when I was walking there, I started to feel breathless and getting anxious cause it was raining and thundery (yes, I'm a bit scared of lighning :D)...so all that combined meant that I was starting to feel very anxious and chest and throat was tight etc with anxiety.
So when we finally reached the cinema and sat ourselves in our seats, I was breathing shallowly, hyperventilating, but I didn't get any Panic attacks...my heart was beating normal...it was only my breathing which was shallow.
I wanted every minute to go out and get fresh air ( u know how it's all dark in the cinema and the special effcts are very loud), but I kept saying give it 5 more mins, give it 5 more mins, you know it will pass.
It did, after 20 mins or so, which meant I couldn't properly concentrate on the movie during that time. Oh well, it was a good movie so I might see it again :D
And then after that, I was feeling better. It's kinda very obvious: first 20 mins I felt all tensed up, anxious, bundle of nerves, breathing shallowly and fast, and then after 25 mins, I felt my chest and throat relax, my mood increased. And i could finally enjoy the movie.
You know, I hate to be nasty to my gf when this happens cause my mood is not good then, and sometimes I might tell her something I might regret. But I keep telling her, please understand me ok, you know how I feel so I never mean to be rude. It's just that this condition makes me easily irritated and annoyed at times :(
Anyway, all through the evening yesterday I was then more or less fine to 99%. I enjoyed the rest of the day.
But this morning, I'm again a bundle of nerves. Feel anxious, tight in the chest, throat muscles tight etc lol. But I know my mind tells me it's fine, don't worry it will pass. I keep calling my gf at work cause I feel much better when I talk to someone, my gf who at least knows of my condition. She does try her best to help me.
And to be honest I'm now more relaxed as I'm writing this and after calling my gf like three times so far :D. Anyway...I'm waiting for something to come through the post, then I'll have a nap cause I feel tired and lack of sleep.
I think the thing which tensed me up this morning is I started asking myself if I'm starting to become asthmatic, cause the symptoms are a bit similar, like tight chest, tight throat muscles. But no wheezing, no difficulty sleeping (i sleep VERY well indeed :D :) ), hmm, I can walk fast, run and not feel extremely breathless (I'm an ex smoker, stopped 1 month ago so I guess it's normal for me to feel a bit breathless). But I don't know, what do people think? Just need some reassurance, then I will feel much much better about it.
Cheers all for listening to my ramblings :) Have a nice day. I might post again later.
Sam.
One day, one day I will beat u and that day, I will be free again, as I was before...