Henry1234
31-12-08, 11:18
Hi - I have just joined after weeks of reading posts on this site - I have to say this site has been the one thing to keep me sane and reading everyones experiences has really helped me - I have to admit that in real anxious and panicky times this site now calms me down quicker than the usual deep breathing and sips of water etc!!.
Well my story is a bit long but here goes
I collapsed at work in July this year - was told I was having panic attacks and anxiety three times on visits to the A&E - my Doc helpfully told me to go for a walk in the fresh air!!.
To cut a long story short I had a Pituarity tumor that was bleeding - scary but once diagnosed correctly (I had to go private!!) was operated on and I was out of hospital within a week.
I made a good recovery for 3 weeks but since then my life has been plagued by symptoms and anxiety and panic.
Every twinge I get is the tumor back - I have been to A&E 22 times since August!!!!! - even the cleaners know my name (I have to say the staff treat me well - whether this is because of the misdiganose ongoing complaint I am not sure!!) and am at my GP every other day.
Most of the tests have come back negative although they are looking into Lupus and am awaiting other tests for that on Friday.
I was getting so bad and anxious that I would wake up and 'madly panic' until I got to A&E (it is on my road!!) - I wouldnt always register but sit there all day just in case - often I would go there and asses how busy it was in case I needed urgent help and could judge if needed to stay there or could go home safe in the knowledge it wasnt too busy.
I wont bore you with my list of symptoms but they range from sweating and red face through to arm pain and pressure in forehead,vision problems and tinittus - also feeling faint and woozy which I hate.
My GP told me about Health Anxiety and I was cross at first thinking'huh if she had been through what I have etc etc'
When not at A&E I constantly check the internet for symptoms and am amazed at what I can find if try hard enough
I also have a BP home monitoring unit which I can use upwards of 100 times a day - if its high then I will sit there redoing it until its lower - if its too low(in my mind) then I will sit there and panic until it goes up - if its normal then I wont beleive it and will recheck it until it isent!!!
I constantly ask my partner of 20 years how he is and LOVE IT if we share the same symptom as I feel safe - hard to admit but am pleased if people are having symptoms as seems to reassure me - if that makes sense
I suppose I am wanting to ask is it normal for someone who has had what I have had to experience such anxiety - I say anxiety but really it would be truer to say my life is ruined and overtaken by this.
I cant go out very far - dont like meeting people and even find talking on the phone hard in case it happens.
I also get overwhelming feelings of impending doom and depersonalisation which are some of the hardest feelings to get rid of.
I cant seem to stop it and while I do have health issues that are unresolved at the moment need to get out of this cycle.
Anyway thanks for reading this and sorry to have gone on - it helps
Mark :blush:
ps after my experience I also dont believe any negative tests that come back and feel like I constantly need to have the tests redone
Well my story is a bit long but here goes
I collapsed at work in July this year - was told I was having panic attacks and anxiety three times on visits to the A&E - my Doc helpfully told me to go for a walk in the fresh air!!.
To cut a long story short I had a Pituarity tumor that was bleeding - scary but once diagnosed correctly (I had to go private!!) was operated on and I was out of hospital within a week.
I made a good recovery for 3 weeks but since then my life has been plagued by symptoms and anxiety and panic.
Every twinge I get is the tumor back - I have been to A&E 22 times since August!!!!! - even the cleaners know my name (I have to say the staff treat me well - whether this is because of the misdiganose ongoing complaint I am not sure!!) and am at my GP every other day.
Most of the tests have come back negative although they are looking into Lupus and am awaiting other tests for that on Friday.
I was getting so bad and anxious that I would wake up and 'madly panic' until I got to A&E (it is on my road!!) - I wouldnt always register but sit there all day just in case - often I would go there and asses how busy it was in case I needed urgent help and could judge if needed to stay there or could go home safe in the knowledge it wasnt too busy.
I wont bore you with my list of symptoms but they range from sweating and red face through to arm pain and pressure in forehead,vision problems and tinittus - also feeling faint and woozy which I hate.
My GP told me about Health Anxiety and I was cross at first thinking'huh if she had been through what I have etc etc'
When not at A&E I constantly check the internet for symptoms and am amazed at what I can find if try hard enough
I also have a BP home monitoring unit which I can use upwards of 100 times a day - if its high then I will sit there redoing it until its lower - if its too low(in my mind) then I will sit there and panic until it goes up - if its normal then I wont beleive it and will recheck it until it isent!!!
I constantly ask my partner of 20 years how he is and LOVE IT if we share the same symptom as I feel safe - hard to admit but am pleased if people are having symptoms as seems to reassure me - if that makes sense
I suppose I am wanting to ask is it normal for someone who has had what I have had to experience such anxiety - I say anxiety but really it would be truer to say my life is ruined and overtaken by this.
I cant go out very far - dont like meeting people and even find talking on the phone hard in case it happens.
I also get overwhelming feelings of impending doom and depersonalisation which are some of the hardest feelings to get rid of.
I cant seem to stop it and while I do have health issues that are unresolved at the moment need to get out of this cycle.
Anyway thanks for reading this and sorry to have gone on - it helps
Mark :blush:
ps after my experience I also dont believe any negative tests that come back and feel like I constantly need to have the tests redone