rocklover
31-12-08, 11:50
Recently I have begun having a panic attack every time I see my boyfriend, I am supposed to be ging over to his house this evening, but I woke up with the familiar dread in the pit of my stomach and huge anxiety feelings.
I read Christine Ingham's Panic Attacks book as recommended on here just before Christmas. The advice in there is brilliant and I have been trying to follow it, by trying to diffuse the panic with positive statements, and also trying to look at it scientifically to enable me to be able to spot my "trigger thoughts". So far I am not doing too well, I think the problem is that because I am so anxious from the moment I get up, I work myself up into an attack, rather than relaxing and avoiding one.
I really am not sure what to do. I am also worried about the relationship as I feel that my boyfriend is a bit fed up with my circumstances (lack of job and money), so this is only making me worse. He knows about my anxiety, but he doesn't know how bad it is as I hide my PA's quite well when with him. I know I need to talk to him about it, as it is part of me, and if he loves me, it won't make a difference to him. I am so scared to do this, because to be honest, I am very unsure of his committment to me, despite the fact we have been together for almost a year.
At times I am tempted to end the relationship as I think that I am not good enough for him and the effort he makes for me has decreased quite abit in the last 3 months. I am really stuck and very anxious.
I read Christine Ingham's Panic Attacks book as recommended on here just before Christmas. The advice in there is brilliant and I have been trying to follow it, by trying to diffuse the panic with positive statements, and also trying to look at it scientifically to enable me to be able to spot my "trigger thoughts". So far I am not doing too well, I think the problem is that because I am so anxious from the moment I get up, I work myself up into an attack, rather than relaxing and avoiding one.
I really am not sure what to do. I am also worried about the relationship as I feel that my boyfriend is a bit fed up with my circumstances (lack of job and money), so this is only making me worse. He knows about my anxiety, but he doesn't know how bad it is as I hide my PA's quite well when with him. I know I need to talk to him about it, as it is part of me, and if he loves me, it won't make a difference to him. I am so scared to do this, because to be honest, I am very unsure of his committment to me, despite the fact we have been together for almost a year.
At times I am tempted to end the relationship as I think that I am not good enough for him and the effort he makes for me has decreased quite abit in the last 3 months. I am really stuck and very anxious.