dizzydruid
01-07-05, 16:04
Hi everyone,
thought I had better introduce myself. I'm a bit shy so bear with me lol. sorry if I go on a bit about my background but I need to get it out and explain to people who may understand some of what I'm going through
My name is Lucy and I spend all day looking after my 3 year old, I also have a 6 year old at school. I have suffered from depression on and off all my adult life and each time after my children were born I ended up on anti depressants which helped me get back to a relatively normal level. Last time I also had CBT which helped me cope with my depression and maintain it at a bearable level.
I split up from my husband about 7 months ago and the first few months were hectic finding somewhere to live and getting everything sorted. i was looking forward to my new life and have since found a new partner who is supportive. However since everything has settled I have got more and more anxious to the point where I have difficulty coping.
I had a bit of anxiety when my youngest was weaning and I became worried she would choke to death. I had a few panic attacks at the time but these dissappeared. A few months ago I came down with a virus similar to glandular fever and I became obssessed that I had throat cancer. I worry constantly that I have some major illness whenever
I get the slightest pain. I am convinced my teeth are falling out depsite my dentist telling me they are fine.
I worry mostly about the kids, every cough my heart jumps and the adreneline flows. Every cry sometimes can set me off. Its got to the point where I dont feel that I can cope when I'm on my own in case something terible happens. I am on edge and anxiuos most of the day as if im waiting to spring into action.
It all came to a head when I was on my own one weekend and I was convinced I was dying because I felt sick. I panicked about what the kids would do if I dies and no one was there, what would they do? would they be stuck for days before anyone noticed I was dead?
Since then it feels as though something went in my head and I have been anxious and worrying constantly. My doctor has put me back onto antidepressants. First I went on cipramil but it gave me horrible side effects. I have now been on my old AD Lustral (sertaline) for three days now and I'm hoping it will help.
I feel such a mess and although people are supportive it is hard because they dont fully understand. At times I feel like I am completely mad :( I feel lost and alone and dont know how to deal with the anxiety.
sorry for going on,hope to get to know you all
Lucy x
thought I had better introduce myself. I'm a bit shy so bear with me lol. sorry if I go on a bit about my background but I need to get it out and explain to people who may understand some of what I'm going through
My name is Lucy and I spend all day looking after my 3 year old, I also have a 6 year old at school. I have suffered from depression on and off all my adult life and each time after my children were born I ended up on anti depressants which helped me get back to a relatively normal level. Last time I also had CBT which helped me cope with my depression and maintain it at a bearable level.
I split up from my husband about 7 months ago and the first few months were hectic finding somewhere to live and getting everything sorted. i was looking forward to my new life and have since found a new partner who is supportive. However since everything has settled I have got more and more anxious to the point where I have difficulty coping.
I had a bit of anxiety when my youngest was weaning and I became worried she would choke to death. I had a few panic attacks at the time but these dissappeared. A few months ago I came down with a virus similar to glandular fever and I became obssessed that I had throat cancer. I worry constantly that I have some major illness whenever
I get the slightest pain. I am convinced my teeth are falling out depsite my dentist telling me they are fine.
I worry mostly about the kids, every cough my heart jumps and the adreneline flows. Every cry sometimes can set me off. Its got to the point where I dont feel that I can cope when I'm on my own in case something terible happens. I am on edge and anxiuos most of the day as if im waiting to spring into action.
It all came to a head when I was on my own one weekend and I was convinced I was dying because I felt sick. I panicked about what the kids would do if I dies and no one was there, what would they do? would they be stuck for days before anyone noticed I was dead?
Since then it feels as though something went in my head and I have been anxious and worrying constantly. My doctor has put me back onto antidepressants. First I went on cipramil but it gave me horrible side effects. I have now been on my old AD Lustral (sertaline) for three days now and I'm hoping it will help.
I feel such a mess and although people are supportive it is hard because they dont fully understand. At times I feel like I am completely mad :( I feel lost and alone and dont know how to deal with the anxiety.
sorry for going on,hope to get to know you all
Lucy x