rocklover
06-01-09, 13:02
It just seems to be getting worse! I feel sick all day every day and worry about going out, I almost had a panic attack just going to the supermarket today. What the hell is wrong with me?
I managed to get better in Oct through positive thinking and self belief that I was a strong person and I lost the fear of my symptoms, and lo and behold, they went (even the nausea). Now I am in the grip of it again, I am so terrified i will be sick or lose control even though I KNOW that this has never happened and is very unlikely to ever happen. Yet I am unable to comfort myself with this anymore.
I am panicked that my boyfriend will dump me as I am finding it hard to get to his house or even go out on a date, and I am pressuring myself to get a job because I am worried about what he thinks of me. I am no longer living, just existing, Ican't concentrate, I often don't hear/take in things that people have said to me, I feel I am on the outside of life.
I know all the theories; distraction, relaxation, positive thinking, exposure to uncomfortable situations, yet I just CAN'T feel better. I don't want to take meds, but I need to start living my life again, but how???? Sorry for the rant, just needed to vent. Any advice/comments at all would be most welcome.
I managed to get better in Oct through positive thinking and self belief that I was a strong person and I lost the fear of my symptoms, and lo and behold, they went (even the nausea). Now I am in the grip of it again, I am so terrified i will be sick or lose control even though I KNOW that this has never happened and is very unlikely to ever happen. Yet I am unable to comfort myself with this anymore.
I am panicked that my boyfriend will dump me as I am finding it hard to get to his house or even go out on a date, and I am pressuring myself to get a job because I am worried about what he thinks of me. I am no longer living, just existing, Ican't concentrate, I often don't hear/take in things that people have said to me, I feel I am on the outside of life.
I know all the theories; distraction, relaxation, positive thinking, exposure to uncomfortable situations, yet I just CAN'T feel better. I don't want to take meds, but I need to start living my life again, but how???? Sorry for the rant, just needed to vent. Any advice/comments at all would be most welcome.