tnt808
07-01-09, 16:46
Hi NMP,
It's been quite a while since I have posted on here, so, I found it fitting to re-introduce myself.
I used to be a pretty active member here until my life went crazy. I am from Hawaii, and wouldn't live anywhere else in the world. Except maybe Bali, or Sicily! :)
I suffer from General Anxiety, and at one point had found myself staring down the throat of the ugly Health Anxiety monster. I feel like I have both under control right now. Sure, I have my episodes, that to the un-trained eye I am a freakshow, but to me I am able to control them much better. I don't wake up with that doom&gloom feeling.
I have no cure, no book to suggest to read, no meditation tapes! The only thing that helped me was that I faced it everyday by myself for 13 months. I had 3 children that depended upon me, a dog, and a cat. My husband deployed to Korea and that is how I finally found out what I truly am capable of. I wouldn't trade that year for anything...I am strong, I can fight anxiety, and I don't ever, ever want to do that year again. haha
Needless to say, he is gone again...(story of my life). I have new anxiety now, although, much improved! I have weight issues...oh, I can't tell you how many sleepless nights I've had thinking about the weight I have gained. Promising myself that I will lose it while he is gone. I know I'm not fat, or the rational part of me does. Blah! See, you let one part of your anxiety go and replace it with a new and improved. kindler, gentler one!
Anyways, I will try to post on here from time to time. I hope all is well with the ones I used to know, and look forward to hearing from one's I don't.
It's been quite a while since I have posted on here, so, I found it fitting to re-introduce myself.
I used to be a pretty active member here until my life went crazy. I am from Hawaii, and wouldn't live anywhere else in the world. Except maybe Bali, or Sicily! :)
I suffer from General Anxiety, and at one point had found myself staring down the throat of the ugly Health Anxiety monster. I feel like I have both under control right now. Sure, I have my episodes, that to the un-trained eye I am a freakshow, but to me I am able to control them much better. I don't wake up with that doom&gloom feeling.
I have no cure, no book to suggest to read, no meditation tapes! The only thing that helped me was that I faced it everyday by myself for 13 months. I had 3 children that depended upon me, a dog, and a cat. My husband deployed to Korea and that is how I finally found out what I truly am capable of. I wouldn't trade that year for anything...I am strong, I can fight anxiety, and I don't ever, ever want to do that year again. haha
Needless to say, he is gone again...(story of my life). I have new anxiety now, although, much improved! I have weight issues...oh, I can't tell you how many sleepless nights I've had thinking about the weight I have gained. Promising myself that I will lose it while he is gone. I know I'm not fat, or the rational part of me does. Blah! See, you let one part of your anxiety go and replace it with a new and improved. kindler, gentler one!
Anyways, I will try to post on here from time to time. I hope all is well with the ones I used to know, and look forward to hearing from one's I don't.