Budgie
10-01-09, 19:45
Hi there!
I'm Budgie (aka Gemma), I'm 25 and live in the UK. I just started a job in the civil service recently: I'm employed, I'm earning money, my supervisor says I'm doing really well.... so... why am I feeling like this? :doh::shrug:
I'm pretty shy, and often get tongue tied (even when I'm typing) so excuse me and my rambling! I've not felt so good for quite a while now. I guess I've always been a nervous person, but as I've got older its got worse. Lately I've been finding life quite hard to cope with, and have felt depressed as well as anxious. I've had difficult times with my emotions in the past, but somehow I've ended up in a hole again, that feels deeper than ever :blush:
I went to see my GP about it a few months ago, as I knew I had to try to do something. I've got to a stage where I feel suicidal. The thought of feeling so anxious and so down everyday makes me not want to be here anymore. Its so exhausting, and so empty. Well, when I saw my GP he said I was really strong to admit how I've been feeling, and since then I've been going back to see him every few weeks to keep him up to date on how I'm getting on. Before Christmas, when I saw him, we were discussing what type of help is available, and I asked if it was possible to have some counselling -- back in 2001, I went through a dark time, and went to see a counsellor for quite a while, and it really helped me though -- when I told my GP this, he got onto organising it, and now I'm just waiting for more details. A nurse is going to phone me on the 19th of January to ask me some questions. I'm really worried though, that after this has happened, they might say I'm not eligable for counselling :unsure:
But, its great to find a forum like this, its lovely to meet you :)
I'm Budgie (aka Gemma), I'm 25 and live in the UK. I just started a job in the civil service recently: I'm employed, I'm earning money, my supervisor says I'm doing really well.... so... why am I feeling like this? :doh::shrug:
I'm pretty shy, and often get tongue tied (even when I'm typing) so excuse me and my rambling! I've not felt so good for quite a while now. I guess I've always been a nervous person, but as I've got older its got worse. Lately I've been finding life quite hard to cope with, and have felt depressed as well as anxious. I've had difficult times with my emotions in the past, but somehow I've ended up in a hole again, that feels deeper than ever :blush:
I went to see my GP about it a few months ago, as I knew I had to try to do something. I've got to a stage where I feel suicidal. The thought of feeling so anxious and so down everyday makes me not want to be here anymore. Its so exhausting, and so empty. Well, when I saw my GP he said I was really strong to admit how I've been feeling, and since then I've been going back to see him every few weeks to keep him up to date on how I'm getting on. Before Christmas, when I saw him, we were discussing what type of help is available, and I asked if it was possible to have some counselling -- back in 2001, I went through a dark time, and went to see a counsellor for quite a while, and it really helped me though -- when I told my GP this, he got onto organising it, and now I'm just waiting for more details. A nurse is going to phone me on the 19th of January to ask me some questions. I'm really worried though, that after this has happened, they might say I'm not eligable for counselling :unsure:
But, its great to find a forum like this, its lovely to meet you :)