iv-tecman
13-01-09, 12:05
Firstly I’d like to say hello to everyone, found the site very informative and decided to post about myself and see where it leads. Hopefully it’ll provide me with some useful information about what I’m currently feeling.
I’m going to cut a long story short, basically met a new girl about a year ago she is very good at looking into what makes someone tick and even from the start of the relationship, even though she never mentioned at the time (being polite I guess) she noticed I was very nervous. Our first kiss was very overwhelming, and over the past few months I’ve had feelings in my stomach that some would think as being in love.
Sadly, the feelings of nausea and palpitations are nothing new to me, I get them all the time. I’ve just learnt to live with it. However the feeling of being sick and worry is now getting worse and worse, perhaps because this is the first time I've had a relationship and its something new, and I will admit this is perhaps the worse I’ve ever felt. At 35 I’ve had ups and downs, however I’ve now taken the step to try and find out what the cause of this might be. Yes 35, I am a bit of a late bloomer, but then I tend to shy away from something new at first, as I tend to be cautious and not rush into anything….. not to say I never do anything..!! I’m just shy.
My girlfriend is being very supportive. She isn’t putting ideas into my head, but she likes me to talk about the fears I have so as she can then help me to get it out in the open at it were, and not dwell on what I’m thinking, and at times this does help.
I’ve been to see my doctor, and my doctor prescribed me anti sickness tablets. Buccastem. Sadly these haven’t done anything, in fact I’m now consistently having feelings of nausea, and two weeks ago I lost the ability to breath correctly, and felt the entire room around me was closing in and I just felt like I was trapped. My girlfriend believes this was a panic attack, and it was very embarrassing as even though I’ve had palpitations before, this time I struggled to breath it was very strong and ever since this happened I’ve not been the same.
Its almost like I’m waiting for this to happen again, but I don’t know what triggered it or why I was sitting in bed, then all of a sudden I couldn’t breath correctly. I’ve slept on the couch for a few nights to avoid it happening again, much to the annoyance of my girlfriend however I’ve overcome this as she changed the bed cover colours.!!!?? Odd eh? I worry about everything in life, I’m always being told in jest that the reason I can eat and not put on weight is because I worry all my weight away…. Many a true statement said in jest..!!
I have another appointment with the doctors where I’ll explain what has happened, and we’ll take it from there. I’m just confused as to what my next step is, as I don’t like the feeling of intense sickness all the time, I don’t like the idea I might be short of breath again and I just want to get on with making my life with a girl who cares a lot for me. I worry too much, and the anxious feelings aren’t helping, as its taking hold of me more and more and not allowing me to move on…. Its hard to explain, it’s a burden I would like to help myself to rid therefore I’ll do whatever it takes.
I don’t know how to approach what I’m feeling so I’m hoping members on here can at least point me in the right direction as I’m fairly resourceful, so I’m sure if I’m positive I will at least reduce the feelings of worry and even better remove the stomach pains I’ve lived with for so long once and for all….
Thanks for reading, I could have posted a lot more however enough of my troubles, I just wanted to talk as it does help me. It has taken me a lot of courage to post this up, its taken courage to talk to a doctor..!!
I’m going to cut a long story short, basically met a new girl about a year ago she is very good at looking into what makes someone tick and even from the start of the relationship, even though she never mentioned at the time (being polite I guess) she noticed I was very nervous. Our first kiss was very overwhelming, and over the past few months I’ve had feelings in my stomach that some would think as being in love.
Sadly, the feelings of nausea and palpitations are nothing new to me, I get them all the time. I’ve just learnt to live with it. However the feeling of being sick and worry is now getting worse and worse, perhaps because this is the first time I've had a relationship and its something new, and I will admit this is perhaps the worse I’ve ever felt. At 35 I’ve had ups and downs, however I’ve now taken the step to try and find out what the cause of this might be. Yes 35, I am a bit of a late bloomer, but then I tend to shy away from something new at first, as I tend to be cautious and not rush into anything….. not to say I never do anything..!! I’m just shy.
My girlfriend is being very supportive. She isn’t putting ideas into my head, but she likes me to talk about the fears I have so as she can then help me to get it out in the open at it were, and not dwell on what I’m thinking, and at times this does help.
I’ve been to see my doctor, and my doctor prescribed me anti sickness tablets. Buccastem. Sadly these haven’t done anything, in fact I’m now consistently having feelings of nausea, and two weeks ago I lost the ability to breath correctly, and felt the entire room around me was closing in and I just felt like I was trapped. My girlfriend believes this was a panic attack, and it was very embarrassing as even though I’ve had palpitations before, this time I struggled to breath it was very strong and ever since this happened I’ve not been the same.
Its almost like I’m waiting for this to happen again, but I don’t know what triggered it or why I was sitting in bed, then all of a sudden I couldn’t breath correctly. I’ve slept on the couch for a few nights to avoid it happening again, much to the annoyance of my girlfriend however I’ve overcome this as she changed the bed cover colours.!!!?? Odd eh? I worry about everything in life, I’m always being told in jest that the reason I can eat and not put on weight is because I worry all my weight away…. Many a true statement said in jest..!!
I have another appointment with the doctors where I’ll explain what has happened, and we’ll take it from there. I’m just confused as to what my next step is, as I don’t like the feeling of intense sickness all the time, I don’t like the idea I might be short of breath again and I just want to get on with making my life with a girl who cares a lot for me. I worry too much, and the anxious feelings aren’t helping, as its taking hold of me more and more and not allowing me to move on…. Its hard to explain, it’s a burden I would like to help myself to rid therefore I’ll do whatever it takes.
I don’t know how to approach what I’m feeling so I’m hoping members on here can at least point me in the right direction as I’m fairly resourceful, so I’m sure if I’m positive I will at least reduce the feelings of worry and even better remove the stomach pains I’ve lived with for so long once and for all….
Thanks for reading, I could have posted a lot more however enough of my troubles, I just wanted to talk as it does help me. It has taken me a lot of courage to post this up, its taken courage to talk to a doctor..!!