jojo2316
14-01-09, 21:55
So guys, I really need to splurge about my stupid nutty breast related HA. It's been going on now for about three months and I worry about it almost non-stop (literally). I check my breasts compulsively, several times a day...... even though I try desperately to stop myself (like taking the mirrors off the wall before I shower so I can't look to see if they are uneven, etc).
I don't have one particular lump - rather about 10 different places in my breasts that worry me when I focus on them (I tend to worry about one at a time, and rotate them).
In the last 6 months I've had several doctors feel my breasts and THREE breast ultrasounds (paid for privately - the NHS, quite rightly, doesn't need to be burdened with the likes of me :blush: )....... none of which found anything abnormal.......... But I don't believe the results, I keep thinking they must have missed something and I keep feeling things that worry me in my breasts (not always a lump, sometimes a sort of ridge in the breast tissue, or a very smooth place, or a rougher place, or a grapepip sized bump, or if I move my arm in a certain way the curve of my breast looks like there is a lump under the skin, even though I can't feel one... ).
I know, as I write this, how mad it sounds, how far removed from the way sane people are. I am going to see the consultant again on friday to talk about screening options until I - or my breasts - calm down (I have been either pregnant or breastfeeding for the last four years so my breasts are changing all the time). I'll just have to admit I am an insane hypochondriac at the moment and hope he bears with me. I nervous in case he finds anything and nervous in case he doesn't and I don't believe him! Urgh, so sorry for this rant. But it's great therapy for me to write it down :yesyes:
xxx
I don't have one particular lump - rather about 10 different places in my breasts that worry me when I focus on them (I tend to worry about one at a time, and rotate them).
In the last 6 months I've had several doctors feel my breasts and THREE breast ultrasounds (paid for privately - the NHS, quite rightly, doesn't need to be burdened with the likes of me :blush: )....... none of which found anything abnormal.......... But I don't believe the results, I keep thinking they must have missed something and I keep feeling things that worry me in my breasts (not always a lump, sometimes a sort of ridge in the breast tissue, or a very smooth place, or a rougher place, or a grapepip sized bump, or if I move my arm in a certain way the curve of my breast looks like there is a lump under the skin, even though I can't feel one... ).
I know, as I write this, how mad it sounds, how far removed from the way sane people are. I am going to see the consultant again on friday to talk about screening options until I - or my breasts - calm down (I have been either pregnant or breastfeeding for the last four years so my breasts are changing all the time). I'll just have to admit I am an insane hypochondriac at the moment and hope he bears with me. I nervous in case he finds anything and nervous in case he doesn't and I don't believe him! Urgh, so sorry for this rant. But it's great therapy for me to write it down :yesyes:
xxx