Worried about my health 4 to long

[daniellemarie]

Hiya every 1 my name is Danielle im 21 since i was 18 i have sufferd from anxiety but i seriously worry about my health it satrted off i was at work and my chest became tight i jumped up and it started i nearly fainted ever since i have had his health anxiety i had a do at having water infections i realy belived it was cervical cancer i suffer from migrains i realy belived it was a brain tumor no matter what any 1 said it was happening it was always some thin i got over thinkin it was cervical cancer and went on to thinkin i had a brain tumor my life just stopped nday in day out worrying all kinds of symptoms my boyfriend has put up with so much, i have been to my doctor so many times i ended up changing doctors becaquse i was emmbarrased i new the recepcionist look at me strange i dont so much worry about my headaches any more but i do still suffer i get a pain and im convinced its seriouse i tell my boyfriend its seriouse this time no 1 belives me when i am ill i recently had sever constipation i was conviced again it was cancer its so hard living like this i go to town my head starts to feel strange like my eye balls shrink i start patting my head smelling olbas oil to clear it i get on edge its horrible but no matter what i hear or read ialways think its seriouse i am so much better than i was threw self helping but when i get so many symptoms i think to my self it cant be anxiety how can it its some think bad my mum always says im fine my main syptom is my head starts to tingle and like i said my eyes shrink to the back of my head and its foggy i just rush round every were to get home i realy wonted to post this to see if any 1 else gos through what i do may it could help me and who ever else also i think im not suppose to be happy i belive im cursed like when im going any were im convinced ill be upset and sad before hand so i can be happy its confuseing im not sure if its to do with anxiety but it is a issue for me xxx:)

[Nutmeg]

Hey,

I'm sorry you're going through this, I know how hard it is. I have Health OCD my health anxiety was so bad that I started getting compulsions frist checking then full blown OCD related to health. I don't know what to say other than you are not alone. I used to be terrible but then I had a 2 year gap and even though I am having a tough time I'm determined that it can get better you can get rid of it. I'm sorry I don;t know what else to say but you're not alone!

xxxx

[daniellemarie]

thanks for your reply i also go through ocd i cany stand my house un tidy i get so up set and frustratedi clean top 2 bottom daily most things more than once it is very hard i am trying my hardest to get by try to defeat this im on citalopram for the anxiety i was on this be4 and it did help but came off them had some upset in my life and it started again so im giveing them another go thanks again xxxx

[daniellemarie]

Hiya every 1 my name is Danielle im 21 since i was 18 i have sufferd from anxiety but i seriously worry about my health it satrted off i was at work and my chest became tight i jumped up and it started i nearly fainted ever since i have had his health anxiety i had a do at having water infections i realy belived it was cervical cancer i suffer from migrains i realy belived it was a brain tumor no matter what any 1 said it was happening it was always some thin i got over thinkin it was cervical cancer and went on to thinkin i had a brain tumor my life just stopped nday in day out worrying all kinds of symptoms my boyfriend has put up with so much, i have been to my doctor so many times i ended up changing doctors becaquse i was emmbarrased i new the recepcionist look at me strange i dont so much worry about my headaches any more but i do still suffer i get a pain and im convinced its seriouse i tell my boyfriend its seriouse this time no 1 belives me when i am ill i recently had sever constipation i was conviced again it was cancer its so hard living like this i go to town my head starts to feel strange like my eye balls shrink i start patting my head smelling olbas oil to clear it i get on edge its horrible but no matter what i hear or read ialways think its seriouse i am so much better than i was threw self helping but when i get so many symptoms i think to my self it cant be anxiety how can it its some think bad my mum always says im fine my main syptom is my head starts to tingle and like i said my eyes shrink to the back of my head and its foggy i just rush round every were to get home i realy wonted to post this to see if any 1 else gos through what i do may it could help me and who ever else xxx:)
sorry please Excuse my wrighting errors :)

[lynda]

hi daniellemarie
i was 21 when i started and i am 42 now ,i had a basilar migraine attack that was like a stroke and it was the pill that caused it .i have been anxious ever since about health issues etc i just want to say i didnt know i had this untill last year really .ive always known i was anxiuos person ,its good you recognise this so young and hopefully you will be able to master it ,does your gp offer cognitive therapy if so grab it . i use smelling salts as my safety thing and when i had cbt i realised why .
my husband and now my children have been patient and i have tried not to pass stuff onto them ,my mum died when i was 11 and that didnt help . please try and get help as you are so young and i dont want you to be writing like me when you are 42 . all the best and welldone for writting to no more panic . i forget to say i have exactly the same feeling as you and thats when i have panic attacks .but i have had so many now i recognise it .and know i will be ok but its still frightening .

:hugs:lynda

[fairyfloss]

just wanted to let you know that your not alone either,head feeling funny and not part of the surroundings and horrible foggy head! been reading lots of messages on here and its comforting to know that we are not going mad as there are lots of other people suffering the same things.Lets keep up our "self talk".x

[Duckie]

Hugs, :hugs: :hugs:
We are there for you.

Duckie xx

[daniellemarie]

hiya lynda your post is very help full to me i relise i had anxiety well i started to except it around 5 months ago before that i wouldnt i was convinced i was ill i still think now tho that im cursed im not suppose to be happy im not sure if this is apart of anxiety but its a big issue for me but i wont my life to change i wont to get back to work and not worry when i leave my hosue or go on family meals i dont drink idont like the feeling it gives i will try the smelling salts i am takeing up yoga to try and relax my self thanks for mailing me it helps xxx

[daniellemarie]

Hiya every 1 my name is Danielle im 21 since i was 18 i have sufferd from anxiety but i seriously worry about my health it satrted off i was at work and my chest became tight i jumped up and it started i nearly fainted ever since i have had his health anxiety i had a do at having water infections i realy belived it was cervical cancer i suffer from migrains i realy belived it was a brain tumor no matter what any 1 said it was happening it was always some thin i got over thinkin it was cervical cancer and went on to thinkin i had a brain tumor my life just stopped nday in day out worrying all kinds of symptoms my boyfriend has put up with so much, i have been to my doctor so many times i ended up changing doctors becaquse i was emmbarrased i new the recepcionist look at me strange i dont so much worry about my headaches any more but i do still suffer i get a pain and im convinced its seriouse i tell my boyfriend its seriouse this time no 1 belives me when i am ill i recently had sever constipation i was conviced again it was cancer its so hard living like this i go to town my head starts to feel strange like my eye balls shrink i start patting my head smelling olbas oil to clear it i get on edge its horrible but no matter what i hear or read ialways think its seriouse i am so much better than i was threw self helping but when i get so many symptoms i think to my self it cant be anxiety how can it its some think bad my mum always says im fine my main syptom is my head starts to tingle and like i said my eyes shrink to the back of my head and its foggy i just rush round every were to get home i realy wonted to post this to see if any 1 else gos through what i do may it could help me and who ever else xxx:)
also with me i realy belive im cursed like im not suppose to be happy like if im up set ill be happpy after it but then upset again i dont no if this is apart of anxiety but it is a big issue for me xx

[daniellemarie]

Thanks for that i am realy happy with what replys i have gotten its like such relife people no what im going through and listen to me because my family dont they brush me off so does my boyfriend there fed up with it thanks every one xxxx

[Duckie]

also with me i realy belive im cursed like im not suppose to be happy like if im up set ill be happpy after it but then upset again i dont no if this is apart of anxiety but it is a big issue for me xx

Sometimes I'm afraid to be happy because as soon as I get to that point I think now what? Is that bomb going to go off and I am going to end up with some deadly disease. Yeah, self talk can really get you down.:weep:

But thankfully we have people here that understand how we feel and are there to support each other every step of the way to lift one another up.:noangel:

[lynda]

hi danielle ,you are most certainly not cursed to have a miserable life ,when you were born you were born for a reason ,a good reason with freedom to enjoy your life ,this illness can take that away to a certain extent BUT you will be able to conquer it like i have said you need to chat with someone to get help ,and stay positive take each day as it comes do something happy each day . and push through when you can . i try ,i go to church and have a faith but i no this HA CAN be a thief and rob us of peace .

keep going and you are meant to have a good life you are so young ,
lynda xx

[Alexy]

Heya

[Alexy]

Heya im new here and i just wanted to say i am exactly the same. Im a 17 year old female and health anxiety is taking over my life, im even afraid to sleep in case i don't wake up:( And the majority of doctors don't seem to take me seriously any more, i go so often, and i feel like im boring my family and boyfriend and friends who don't understand. If its not one thing, its something else..atm im worried about so much, its really really making me unhappy..Like, i can only be happy for a small amount of time, then i remember all of my symptoms and like, get sad again:S

This site is wonderful though:)
Alex xxxx

[jkse]

i am pretty much in the same situation, i am also a 21 yr old female, and ever since Nov this health anxitey is taken over,ever since i have gone through short phases where i get over it and then somthing new comes along, i just obsess over myself and i can tell the ppl around me r getting tired of hearing it..i feel so selfinvolved at times but at the same time i cant help it... but this forum is extremely helpful and the ppl here are soo suportive, i hope everything works out for you, we just have to be more postive...it takes alot of hard work but it will pay off...im still trying to master that

[daniellemarie]

i am pretty much in the same situation, i am also a 21 yr old female, and ever since Nov this health anxitey is taken over,ever since i have gone through short phases where i get over it and then somthing new comes along, i just obsess over myself and i can tell the ppl around me r getting tired of hearing it..i feel so selfinvolved at times but at the same time i cant help it... but this forum is extremely helpful and the ppl here are soo suportive, i hope everything works out for you, we just have to be more postive...it takes alot of hard work but it will pay off...im still trying to master that
thanks for your reply it is a great site ino what u mean sayin no 1 undersatnds its horrible its nice to talk to ppl who understand xx:hugs:

[daniellemarie]

[quote=Alexy;446133]Heya im new here and i just wanted to say i am exactly the same. Im a 17 year old female and health anxiety is taking over my life, im even afraid to sleep in case i don't wake up:( And the majority of doctors don't seem to take me seriously any more, i go so often, and i feel like im boring my family and boyfriend and friends who don't understand. If its not one thing, its something else..atm im worried about so much, its really really making me unhappy..Like, i can only be happy for a small amount of time, then i remember all of my symptoms and like, get sad again:S
This site is wonderful though:)
hiya alexy u sound like the way i think i also get happy about somethin then i remember o what if i have cancer or brain tumor nd im unhappy at one time my life stopped iam much better just fighting it as much as i can i wont to start work i am scared but i thibk mayb it will help me understand when u say the doctors dont listen n u keep sayin but but n they say the same thing and send u home and when u walk out tu thionk i wish i would have mentioned that or that meaning other symptoms u get or apart of your body that aches i use to get so frustrated at the doctors but every time i went i was thinkin all i cud mention but forgot half of it you are young i started off at 17 its easyer said then done tinking diffrent i sometimes think if i dont say any thin about this ache i have it will turn out to be serious hope you defeat this like i am trying i was offerd to go group thearpy with others with HA i was takeing citalopram at the time n didnt go cuz i felt better i wish i went i think it wud be such a help talkin to others about iti stopped the citalopram but i am now takeing them again they work great u should ask your doctor about them its only a small does but works great onist danielle xx:hugs: :bighug1:

[daniellemarie]

hi danielle ,you are most certainly not cursed to have a miserable life ,when you were born you were born for a reason ,a good reason with freedom to enjoy your life ,this illness can take that away to a certain extent BUT you will be able to conquer it like i have said you need to chat with someone to get help ,and stay positive take each day as it comes do something happy each day . and push through when you can . i try ,i go to church and have a faith but i no this HA CAN be a thief and rob us of peace .

keep going and you are meant to have a good life you are so young ,
lynda xx
Thanks lynda your words mean alot xxx

[kirstymc]

I'm the same Danielle, I'm also 21 and health anxiety is starting to take over my life. I've always been a hypochondriac and have had panic attacks since my early teens. But the last few months it has spun out of control.

I too convince myself that every little thing that's wrong with me is a terminal illness. I genuinely convince myself of this and work myself up into a frenzy. It's affecting my mental health too. Lately I don't see the point in, well, anything! Some days it's a struggle just to get out of bed. My body can't even be bothered to have a panic attack anymore! And like you, I feel like I'm not supposed to be happy, good things aren't meant to happen to me.

I haven't officially been diagnosed with anxiety yet, but I have a GP appointment on Wednesday where I hope the doctor will help me. I have a massive phobia of doctors and hospitals, so it took everything I had to go in there and make the appointment!

So you're definitely not alone. This is such a taboo illness in a way, no matter how much you talk to friends and family about it, they'll probably just think you're overreacting. No-one other than us understands how tormenting it is!