fluffyfred
06-07-05, 15:38
I love my husband to bits, but I've found that I can't tell him the whole story about my depression.
For the past few weeks, I've been feeling like slashing my wrists because several things have got on top of me and I can't seem to make them go away.
I went to the doctor and told her the whole story, told her everything, how I'm scared of hurting my son, how I think about attacking my husband, how I feel an urge to cut my wrists, how I don't want to be here any more. She diagnosed depression and put me on Fluoxetine.
I went home and told my husband and he was scared that I was going to slash my wrists like I did when I was on Citalopram. I was worried about telling him about my thoughts and haven't managed to tell him the whole story still.
My Mum who is schizophrenic has sensed that something isn't right and keeps telling me to give her a call when things get too much for me but I can't seem to be able to, me and her have never had a great relationship to the point I can't even tell her I love her because I'm not sure I do.
I insisted to my husband that me and him go for a walk last week while his parents looked after our Son overnight, I was planning on telling him everything but I just couldn't for some reason. Instead we talked about work and how we're enjoying our jobs which did make me feel a bit better.
I've told him I'd like for us to do the same again this weekend to give us a chance to spend a bit of time together again and talk. We've always had a great relationship with no secrets, so how come I can't tell him everything? Is it because he didn't understand the first time round? He didn't understand why I felt like I did and didn't understand why I was crying all the time. He still doesn't really understand that much now so I'm planning on buying a book for him to read to help him understand.
Sorry for babbling on but I'm just writing down everything as I am thinking it because my concentration levels are terrible at the moment.
fluffy
For the past few weeks, I've been feeling like slashing my wrists because several things have got on top of me and I can't seem to make them go away.
I went to the doctor and told her the whole story, told her everything, how I'm scared of hurting my son, how I think about attacking my husband, how I feel an urge to cut my wrists, how I don't want to be here any more. She diagnosed depression and put me on Fluoxetine.
I went home and told my husband and he was scared that I was going to slash my wrists like I did when I was on Citalopram. I was worried about telling him about my thoughts and haven't managed to tell him the whole story still.
My Mum who is schizophrenic has sensed that something isn't right and keeps telling me to give her a call when things get too much for me but I can't seem to be able to, me and her have never had a great relationship to the point I can't even tell her I love her because I'm not sure I do.
I insisted to my husband that me and him go for a walk last week while his parents looked after our Son overnight, I was planning on telling him everything but I just couldn't for some reason. Instead we talked about work and how we're enjoying our jobs which did make me feel a bit better.
I've told him I'd like for us to do the same again this weekend to give us a chance to spend a bit of time together again and talk. We've always had a great relationship with no secrets, so how come I can't tell him everything? Is it because he didn't understand the first time round? He didn't understand why I felt like I did and didn't understand why I was crying all the time. He still doesn't really understand that much now so I'm planning on buying a book for him to read to help him understand.
Sorry for babbling on but I'm just writing down everything as I am thinking it because my concentration levels are terrible at the moment.
fluffy