micktheblade8
16-01-09, 02:20
Hi,
I havent been doing too badly recently. In actual fact, comparing to where I was on new years eve, 2009, the first 15 days or so havent been too bad!
I've gone back to college, pretty much enjoyed it, and whilst life hasnt been as good as I'd like, its been better than it was a good few months ago and I think I have progressed.
However, I dont know what it was, I was walking home from college and the anxiety came back on. In fact I even crossed the other side of the road to try and reduce the anxiety. I know this was the wrong thing to do now!
Ive been pretty much obsessing all evening long and now its really stuck in my mind. I do feel like a bad person once again, Im sure this will pass, it always comes and goes, its just Ive had a raelly good day at college and now I feel back to square one.
In addition, I watched a documentary on TV earlier about Paul Burrell, which was about his secrets and stuff like that, and I just felt really bad as Ive had a lot of bad thoughts this past year and nobody knows. It feels like Im hiding stuff from people and thats why I always tell my mum about it when its bad, as I need to get it out to someone, I just cant hold it in, its scary.
Will I ever get out of this? I know the only way to get out of this is to accept any bad thoughts that you get and just accept you are human and that everyone gets bad thoughts but non OCD sufferers do not attach any importance to them and move on with there day.
My problem is, when Im in a situation I feel uncomfortable with, I start obsessing and going over again and I know its not healthy, but still, its hard to get out of the habit.
Any words of advice or help would be greatly appreciated. Thanks
Michael
P.S. Ive also been slightly nervous as I am going to Watford this saturday to watch my team Sheffield United play down at Vicarage Road with my friend. I have a ticket in away end and I have been obsessing a bit and worrying the coach may crash, always thinking of the worst eventuality. But the bad thoughts trouble me more!
I havent been doing too badly recently. In actual fact, comparing to where I was on new years eve, 2009, the first 15 days or so havent been too bad!
I've gone back to college, pretty much enjoyed it, and whilst life hasnt been as good as I'd like, its been better than it was a good few months ago and I think I have progressed.
However, I dont know what it was, I was walking home from college and the anxiety came back on. In fact I even crossed the other side of the road to try and reduce the anxiety. I know this was the wrong thing to do now!
Ive been pretty much obsessing all evening long and now its really stuck in my mind. I do feel like a bad person once again, Im sure this will pass, it always comes and goes, its just Ive had a raelly good day at college and now I feel back to square one.
In addition, I watched a documentary on TV earlier about Paul Burrell, which was about his secrets and stuff like that, and I just felt really bad as Ive had a lot of bad thoughts this past year and nobody knows. It feels like Im hiding stuff from people and thats why I always tell my mum about it when its bad, as I need to get it out to someone, I just cant hold it in, its scary.
Will I ever get out of this? I know the only way to get out of this is to accept any bad thoughts that you get and just accept you are human and that everyone gets bad thoughts but non OCD sufferers do not attach any importance to them and move on with there day.
My problem is, when Im in a situation I feel uncomfortable with, I start obsessing and going over again and I know its not healthy, but still, its hard to get out of the habit.
Any words of advice or help would be greatly appreciated. Thanks
Michael
P.S. Ive also been slightly nervous as I am going to Watford this saturday to watch my team Sheffield United play down at Vicarage Road with my friend. I have a ticket in away end and I have been obsessing a bit and worrying the coach may crash, always thinking of the worst eventuality. But the bad thoughts trouble me more!