velvet_diamonds
17-01-09, 23:29
Hi everyone,
I'm new here. Feel so relieved to have found an online community that's home to people who understand how horrible anxiety is.
I'm 21 now and suffered with bulimia from the age of 15 until last summer. I confided in my mother and she told me she'd also had it when she was younger. She's since helped me recover by making me healthy, light meals and talking about it etc. I went to the doctors and they took the salt levels in my blood, monitored my heart, weight etc and said I should be fine provided I start eating properly.
However as soon as I stopped my binging and purging habits I became plagued with anxiety. The main symptom is constantly feeling like there is trapped wind in my chest. It helps when I drink water but never completely goes away. I also feel disorientated all the time and sometimes it even feels like the floor is moving under my feet. My insides also make strange noises all day and people often comment on this!
Night times are an absolute nightmare as soon after I dropped off I wake up feeling like I've suddenly stopped breathing and whenever I do manage to get sleep I wake up clammy and panicking in the morning. Sometimes my whole body feels numb so im scared to stand up and I also get chest pains on the left side. I'm very frightened about the chest pains, especially as I've read that bulimics/former bulimics have an increased chance of having a heart attack and that 10% eventually die from their disorder.
I was out drinking last night and my symptoms today have been terrible so I think that has an effect. If ever I feel I've eaten too much my symptoms go beyond control too but I've managed to resist the urge to purge my food for months.
Can anyone empathise? x
I'm new here. Feel so relieved to have found an online community that's home to people who understand how horrible anxiety is.
I'm 21 now and suffered with bulimia from the age of 15 until last summer. I confided in my mother and she told me she'd also had it when she was younger. She's since helped me recover by making me healthy, light meals and talking about it etc. I went to the doctors and they took the salt levels in my blood, monitored my heart, weight etc and said I should be fine provided I start eating properly.
However as soon as I stopped my binging and purging habits I became plagued with anxiety. The main symptom is constantly feeling like there is trapped wind in my chest. It helps when I drink water but never completely goes away. I also feel disorientated all the time and sometimes it even feels like the floor is moving under my feet. My insides also make strange noises all day and people often comment on this!
Night times are an absolute nightmare as soon after I dropped off I wake up feeling like I've suddenly stopped breathing and whenever I do manage to get sleep I wake up clammy and panicking in the morning. Sometimes my whole body feels numb so im scared to stand up and I also get chest pains on the left side. I'm very frightened about the chest pains, especially as I've read that bulimics/former bulimics have an increased chance of having a heart attack and that 10% eventually die from their disorder.
I was out drinking last night and my symptoms today have been terrible so I think that has an effect. If ever I feel I've eaten too much my symptoms go beyond control too but I've managed to resist the urge to purge my food for months.
Can anyone empathise? x