megan143
19-01-09, 17:14
Hello
I have spent all day reading this forum and what a help it has been, I have suffered from anxiety and panick attacks probably for about 20 years now, although I didn't really know what it was in the past.
Everytime I think I have beaten it it comes back with a vengence and I am having a really bad attack at the moment. The problem I have is I am never sure if I am geniunly ill or if it is panick, today I am in bed with a severe headache and feeling awful, but I was having panick attacks yesterday so not sure if I am really ill or if it is anxiety and of course I cant have a normal headache I have to have a brain tumour:)
I have been to the docs and he has reffered me to a councillor so we will see what that brings.
My biggest fear seems to be the fear of fainting or collasping, I went to the shops yesterday and I felt the usual feeling of oh my god I am going to faint I have to get out of here, I was standing in the queue and nearly run out before getting served. The shop woman must gave thought I was rude as I threw the money at her grabbed the stuff and run out back in to the safety of the car,
I also have a morbid fear of death, and I am obsessed if someone dies what did they die of - oh my god they were young, oh it is going to happen to me!!!! sounds totally unrational when I write it down, I just dont know what is wrong with me, I have a good job, great family and nice home but I seem to spend my days worrying about my health, I am still managing to work but have had days off due to my anxiety and when it comes really bad like this I just stay in bed till it passes.
My husband I think is getting sick of me and says oh what is wrong now, he gets annoyed at me for looking at medical sites and my kids are used to mum being in bed poorly.
I jst want to have a normal life free from anxiety and panick and instead of thinking what if this time there is something really wrong with me.
Love
Megan
I have spent all day reading this forum and what a help it has been, I have suffered from anxiety and panick attacks probably for about 20 years now, although I didn't really know what it was in the past.
Everytime I think I have beaten it it comes back with a vengence and I am having a really bad attack at the moment. The problem I have is I am never sure if I am geniunly ill or if it is panick, today I am in bed with a severe headache and feeling awful, but I was having panick attacks yesterday so not sure if I am really ill or if it is anxiety and of course I cant have a normal headache I have to have a brain tumour:)
I have been to the docs and he has reffered me to a councillor so we will see what that brings.
My biggest fear seems to be the fear of fainting or collasping, I went to the shops yesterday and I felt the usual feeling of oh my god I am going to faint I have to get out of here, I was standing in the queue and nearly run out before getting served. The shop woman must gave thought I was rude as I threw the money at her grabbed the stuff and run out back in to the safety of the car,
I also have a morbid fear of death, and I am obsessed if someone dies what did they die of - oh my god they were young, oh it is going to happen to me!!!! sounds totally unrational when I write it down, I just dont know what is wrong with me, I have a good job, great family and nice home but I seem to spend my days worrying about my health, I am still managing to work but have had days off due to my anxiety and when it comes really bad like this I just stay in bed till it passes.
My husband I think is getting sick of me and says oh what is wrong now, he gets annoyed at me for looking at medical sites and my kids are used to mum being in bed poorly.
I jst want to have a normal life free from anxiety and panick and instead of thinking what if this time there is something really wrong with me.
Love
Megan