halfwaythroughpa
08-07-05, 18:17
Hi
This is my first time as a member and as a postee to post my story of my panic attacks.
I can remember it was when i was in Year 2, that must have been about 1995-96 and i was making something, i think it was a racing car made out of cardboard and the other bits and pieces lying around. Then i decided i'd have a laugh with some of my other classmates and so i decided to put a bag on my head, not over my head, but over my head, you know, laying on top of my head. Then someone who was standing next to me said "you're gonna die now". That was it. I stared at him and said "sorry?". He said the same thing again. Everyone else was laughing but i wasn't. In a minute i went from a really happy would-do-anything-type person to a really frightened and upset little kid. I remember sitting downstairs in my pyjamas, at around 10.30pm, i was shaking because i thought i was gonna die. My mum said i wasn't and course i know that now, but as a little kid, you think that don't you if some little kid told you? Anyway, as the days went this got worser and worser because i was now afraid of smelling or trying anything new, i even remember someone put a crisp packet on my head, and i said "don't do that. Something's gonna happen to me". Everyone laughed and when i think about it, i probably should have but as a frightened always-worried kid, i felt like i was gonna die JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE PUT A CRISP PACKET ON MY HEAD. It's stupid when i think about it now.
Anyway, this frighteness went away until i got to Year 7 and i was worried because i was leaving my primary school and going to secondary school. I was scared of shouting.
It went away again after a while, but in September 2002, i started feeling panicky. And it lasted throughout my lessons. But the day came in November 2002, i think it was a Thursday and i had my first full blown panic attack. I woke up in the morning and i had a massive panic attack. It lasted all day and for 8 months, YES 8 MONTHS i spent my time down by my head of year's office. ALL the time, but in June 2003 i started going into about 1 of 2 lessons. But in September 2003, i went back into all my lessons, after the summer break.
Only a few weeks ago in June 2005, i had to go to Room 16, that's a special quite room because i had a full blown panic attacks. One morning during that month, i felt sick and felt like dying.
I still have panic attacks now but not as bad as they used to be.
That's my life with panic attacks so far.
Please express your views if you want to or just read out of intrest. I hope this helps some people.
Thank you for your time.
This is my first time as a member and as a postee to post my story of my panic attacks.
I can remember it was when i was in Year 2, that must have been about 1995-96 and i was making something, i think it was a racing car made out of cardboard and the other bits and pieces lying around. Then i decided i'd have a laugh with some of my other classmates and so i decided to put a bag on my head, not over my head, but over my head, you know, laying on top of my head. Then someone who was standing next to me said "you're gonna die now". That was it. I stared at him and said "sorry?". He said the same thing again. Everyone else was laughing but i wasn't. In a minute i went from a really happy would-do-anything-type person to a really frightened and upset little kid. I remember sitting downstairs in my pyjamas, at around 10.30pm, i was shaking because i thought i was gonna die. My mum said i wasn't and course i know that now, but as a little kid, you think that don't you if some little kid told you? Anyway, as the days went this got worser and worser because i was now afraid of smelling or trying anything new, i even remember someone put a crisp packet on my head, and i said "don't do that. Something's gonna happen to me". Everyone laughed and when i think about it, i probably should have but as a frightened always-worried kid, i felt like i was gonna die JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE PUT A CRISP PACKET ON MY HEAD. It's stupid when i think about it now.
Anyway, this frighteness went away until i got to Year 7 and i was worried because i was leaving my primary school and going to secondary school. I was scared of shouting.
It went away again after a while, but in September 2002, i started feeling panicky. And it lasted throughout my lessons. But the day came in November 2002, i think it was a Thursday and i had my first full blown panic attack. I woke up in the morning and i had a massive panic attack. It lasted all day and for 8 months, YES 8 MONTHS i spent my time down by my head of year's office. ALL the time, but in June 2003 i started going into about 1 of 2 lessons. But in September 2003, i went back into all my lessons, after the summer break.
Only a few weeks ago in June 2005, i had to go to Room 16, that's a special quite room because i had a full blown panic attacks. One morning during that month, i felt sick and felt like dying.
I still have panic attacks now but not as bad as they used to be.
That's my life with panic attacks so far.
Please express your views if you want to or just read out of intrest. I hope this helps some people.
Thank you for your time.