lushkat
21-01-09, 21:00
H everyone, I have just come across this site and am overwhelmed to find that others feel and experience the same things as I have been. Silly isnt it!
It's been going on now for years, bouts of severe anxiety, all different manner of meds, therapies, having to tell the story again and again to different doctors and therapists, having to excuse my "anxious" behaviour, listen to GPS tell me "once anxious always anxious".
But after Christmas a few weeks ago, I went back to work on Monday 5th Jan, got back to the office, sat down, boss telling me of all the work there was to do, all the emails etc and I just found that I couldnt do it anymore. The palpitations were racing, the tension was awful, neck and shoulders aching, the self talk was so loud I thought others could hear it. I couldnt concentrate, I was popping the Valium, and manicly rubbing my chest, counting the beats, feeling the missed ones and I just thought "no, I am not doing this any more".
I left work and went to the GPs. He signed me off for another two weeks and since then I have taken another two weeks. Trying to make things better this time, otherwise I can see myself spending a lifetime on the rollercoaster. Finding this site seems to have been a great thing, reading about palpitations and what they are has helped enormously so far.
Hope to chat more with you all soon,
Lushkat x
It's been going on now for years, bouts of severe anxiety, all different manner of meds, therapies, having to tell the story again and again to different doctors and therapists, having to excuse my "anxious" behaviour, listen to GPS tell me "once anxious always anxious".
But after Christmas a few weeks ago, I went back to work on Monday 5th Jan, got back to the office, sat down, boss telling me of all the work there was to do, all the emails etc and I just found that I couldnt do it anymore. The palpitations were racing, the tension was awful, neck and shoulders aching, the self talk was so loud I thought others could hear it. I couldnt concentrate, I was popping the Valium, and manicly rubbing my chest, counting the beats, feeling the missed ones and I just thought "no, I am not doing this any more".
I left work and went to the GPs. He signed me off for another two weeks and since then I have taken another two weeks. Trying to make things better this time, otherwise I can see myself spending a lifetime on the rollercoaster. Finding this site seems to have been a great thing, reading about palpitations and what they are has helped enormously so far.
Hope to chat more with you all soon,
Lushkat x