bumbazz
22-01-09, 13:11
hi sorry this ismy first post and iamnot to sure how to explain it at the moment what is troubling me.
i have been suffering from panic attack and anxiety disorder since i was a teen, i did have a short spell of depression when i was 18 . after seeing a psychaitirst and a psychologist i have learn to control my anxiety and panic attack until now. alhough they suggest ti at the yime that ishoudl see a psychotherapist as i have some deeper issue to deal with as aparently i "have too many defence mechanism "but still don't knwo much about what she was talking about.
last years well was very difficult for me and my other half. we had a lot of stress and some event to whci iam still very angry about it ( not towards my partner but to another person who caused some real problem).
since last year i have put on alot of weight over 20 kilos in less than 9 month . i don't sleep very well often waking up every hour or so . i am tired eeryday and "edgy" most of the time. i went to see my GP's who had doen a lot of blood work but everythign came back fine aprt form high blood pressure and cholesterol.
the most tiny thing can make me jump which. before didn't annoyed me at all. it causing some argument with my other half to which is mainly my fault as i am so exhausted all the time.
last night i have a some bizarre occurance i don't know if i have dream about it or not. i was crying all the time no reason i coudln't even recognized myself i was so sad and very agitated. i stil don't knwo if i have dreamt thids episode or not ... anyway since i feel very sad. it felt like i was having a nervous breakdown.
i feel like i am loosing it at the minutes and don't knwo what to do ! my partner is very supportive but sometime he said that i have some bad mood swings and especially the last few month.
i tried to approach my doctor but i have the impression that i am only loosing mine and their time .
sorry for this wallowing but i fear for my sanity at the minutes, i have no energy to do anything.
i have been suffering from panic attack and anxiety disorder since i was a teen, i did have a short spell of depression when i was 18 . after seeing a psychaitirst and a psychologist i have learn to control my anxiety and panic attack until now. alhough they suggest ti at the yime that ishoudl see a psychotherapist as i have some deeper issue to deal with as aparently i "have too many defence mechanism "but still don't knwo much about what she was talking about.
last years well was very difficult for me and my other half. we had a lot of stress and some event to whci iam still very angry about it ( not towards my partner but to another person who caused some real problem).
since last year i have put on alot of weight over 20 kilos in less than 9 month . i don't sleep very well often waking up every hour or so . i am tired eeryday and "edgy" most of the time. i went to see my GP's who had doen a lot of blood work but everythign came back fine aprt form high blood pressure and cholesterol.
the most tiny thing can make me jump which. before didn't annoyed me at all. it causing some argument with my other half to which is mainly my fault as i am so exhausted all the time.
last night i have a some bizarre occurance i don't know if i have dream about it or not. i was crying all the time no reason i coudln't even recognized myself i was so sad and very agitated. i stil don't knwo if i have dreamt thids episode or not ... anyway since i feel very sad. it felt like i was having a nervous breakdown.
i feel like i am loosing it at the minutes and don't knwo what to do ! my partner is very supportive but sometime he said that i have some bad mood swings and especially the last few month.
i tried to approach my doctor but i have the impression that i am only loosing mine and their time .
sorry for this wallowing but i fear for my sanity at the minutes, i have no energy to do anything.