Jordo
22-01-09, 22:02
Hello.
I'm 16 years old and have been struggling with anxiety as long as i can remember. These last 2 years is when i developed my panic disorder, though my first actual panic attack happened years ago. It was the end of my 9th grade when things started getting rough. I was never getting any better, just worse and worse. I began my 10th grade year following the worst summer of my life, filled of anxiety and depression. I started having a panic attack every single day in school and it was taking a toll on my education. I was unable to concentrate in class, always worried about having a panic attack and freaking out in front of my friends. It soon got to the point where i called it quits for public schooling. For the first time in my life i tried out online school and i was unable to do it. It was up to me to get my work done and i had too much depression due to anxiety that i chose not to do a lot of it and failed the year. I had another terrible summer after this school year. I never talked or spent time with my friends anymore. I'm now trying homebound instruction, which is going better but still not well. I was hoping to get my 10th and 11th grades done in one year and get back with my class for my senior year. Even though i know it was too big of a step for me to make with the condition i'm in, i still feel like a loser. How i used to dream of my graduation with my class and heading off to college. Before my 10th grade year i was in all the top classes and had no trouble passing any of them. Now i wonder if i'll get to finish high school. I don't want to make my introduction too long, so i'll try to cut it short. I have tried a few different medications Paxil, Zoloft, Xanax, and am now on Wellbutrin. I've been to two different therapists who i've felt done nothing for me. I have acquired phobias of things that i never used to think of. Fear of the sky(emptiness), fireworks(anticipation), and enclosed areas(moving cars or airplanes). I just don't understand how i became a huge mess so quickly. Anyways, it's nice to meet you all.
I'm 16 years old and have been struggling with anxiety as long as i can remember. These last 2 years is when i developed my panic disorder, though my first actual panic attack happened years ago. It was the end of my 9th grade when things started getting rough. I was never getting any better, just worse and worse. I began my 10th grade year following the worst summer of my life, filled of anxiety and depression. I started having a panic attack every single day in school and it was taking a toll on my education. I was unable to concentrate in class, always worried about having a panic attack and freaking out in front of my friends. It soon got to the point where i called it quits for public schooling. For the first time in my life i tried out online school and i was unable to do it. It was up to me to get my work done and i had too much depression due to anxiety that i chose not to do a lot of it and failed the year. I had another terrible summer after this school year. I never talked or spent time with my friends anymore. I'm now trying homebound instruction, which is going better but still not well. I was hoping to get my 10th and 11th grades done in one year and get back with my class for my senior year. Even though i know it was too big of a step for me to make with the condition i'm in, i still feel like a loser. How i used to dream of my graduation with my class and heading off to college. Before my 10th grade year i was in all the top classes and had no trouble passing any of them. Now i wonder if i'll get to finish high school. I don't want to make my introduction too long, so i'll try to cut it short. I have tried a few different medications Paxil, Zoloft, Xanax, and am now on Wellbutrin. I've been to two different therapists who i've felt done nothing for me. I have acquired phobias of things that i never used to think of. Fear of the sky(emptiness), fireworks(anticipation), and enclosed areas(moving cars or airplanes). I just don't understand how i became a huge mess so quickly. Anyways, it's nice to meet you all.