d3niro
23-01-09, 23:52
The mind is such a crazy thing sometimes, Sooooo amazingly powerfull.
I mean if we can easily let these crazy thoughts into our head how can we not let them out so easliy??
I have suffered anxiety for 20 years now and it comes and goes, when it comes though it comes with such a force i feel there is no way out although i know there is beacause i have been here b4 over and over the last 20years.
I have extremely scary thoughts that pop in and out of my head daily, these are for and example....
Harming myself/others these are the worst i have ever thought...
Sometimes i have weird thoughts...like if i think of us being here on the planet and wot it all means its like a really huge OVERWELMING feeling its really hard to explain and understand y i fear this?
I feel sick now...my stomach is turning now as i'm thinkin and writing about it..hee hee.
The nights were my most relaxed times but few weeks bk i was up all night panicin till 5am...this has now made me anxious every night. Its doin my head in. But this is the bit that get me...about the MIND. Its played tricks on my for so long now so easily...but i cant get out of it as quickly as i'd like.
I'm still doin my normal day jobs and socializin but i'm findin it like a battle, Like i'm makin myself do this just so i don't go insane. lol
The thought of harming myself scares the livin daylights out of my as they feel so real, but i know i'm not goin to do anything. But the thought really gets my down. I believe if i didn't have these main thoughts i'd be half alright...lol
I'm currently seein a councilor but progress is slow at the moment...i have faith i will snap out of this. As i have survived 20years with anxiety.
One thought i also have is about meds people have always tried to adive me not to take any meds as they can be addictive....but thinkin about it...is that such as bad thing?
If i'm unhappy now but meds will make me happier then where is the problem?
I'd rather be anxiety free and happy again..then misserable and find my days a constant battle.
I mean if we can easily let these crazy thoughts into our head how can we not let them out so easliy??
I have suffered anxiety for 20 years now and it comes and goes, when it comes though it comes with such a force i feel there is no way out although i know there is beacause i have been here b4 over and over the last 20years.
I have extremely scary thoughts that pop in and out of my head daily, these are for and example....
Harming myself/others these are the worst i have ever thought...
Sometimes i have weird thoughts...like if i think of us being here on the planet and wot it all means its like a really huge OVERWELMING feeling its really hard to explain and understand y i fear this?
I feel sick now...my stomach is turning now as i'm thinkin and writing about it..hee hee.
The nights were my most relaxed times but few weeks bk i was up all night panicin till 5am...this has now made me anxious every night. Its doin my head in. But this is the bit that get me...about the MIND. Its played tricks on my for so long now so easily...but i cant get out of it as quickly as i'd like.
I'm still doin my normal day jobs and socializin but i'm findin it like a battle, Like i'm makin myself do this just so i don't go insane. lol
The thought of harming myself scares the livin daylights out of my as they feel so real, but i know i'm not goin to do anything. But the thought really gets my down. I believe if i didn't have these main thoughts i'd be half alright...lol
I'm currently seein a councilor but progress is slow at the moment...i have faith i will snap out of this. As i have survived 20years with anxiety.
One thought i also have is about meds people have always tried to adive me not to take any meds as they can be addictive....but thinkin about it...is that such as bad thing?
If i'm unhappy now but meds will make me happier then where is the problem?
I'd rather be anxiety free and happy again..then misserable and find my days a constant battle.