Twinkle
10-07-05, 18:57
Tomorrow we have a big meeting at work which I am not directly involved with but have organised. I have also organised a trip to Windsor Racecourse for the evening for those who attended the event during the day.
I am not participating much in the meetings during the day, however my boss has asked me to go to the races as a thank you and also to make sure everything runs smoothly.
I am really scared :(
All these horrible thoughts keep running through my head and I am trying to be positive but I am losing!
Our company is in Slough and I have organised a coach to take people to the racecourse which is about 15 mins away, however there is always so much traffic going there that others reckon it will take about an hour to get there when they leave at 5.30! My plan was to drive behind them in my car as then I will have my car there which will make me feel safer, I am then not dependant on anyone to get home. The thing is I hate traffic so much and the thought of sitting there gets me feeling anxious already. I really feel trapped when I am in traffic and avoid driving on busy roads at busy times at all costs!
The other option would be to go a bit earlier, say at about 4.30pm and get there without much of a risk of traffic. However, then I will be there on my own and although I can sit in the car I know I will be winding myself up the whole time while I am waiting for them!
I live about 20mins away from the course and I will feel trapped there as the traffic will probably be bad on the road I need to go on to get home too.
Blimey just reading back through what I am writing I can tell I am not being very positive at the moment am I!!??
Anyway, can anyone offer me any advise as to which decision to take and what to do if I lose it when I am there.
My boss does know about my issues and has been very supportive, but its not the same as having my 'safe' people around me.
I guess it would just be nice to hear from others who suffer with this telling me that I will be ok and even if I do panic it will pass.
I really don't want to panic in front of everyone there and embarass myself by fainting or making a scene in front of my colleagues.
I would appreciate any help/advise/support anyone else can give me.
Thanks.
Twinkle xx
I am not participating much in the meetings during the day, however my boss has asked me to go to the races as a thank you and also to make sure everything runs smoothly.
I am really scared :(
All these horrible thoughts keep running through my head and I am trying to be positive but I am losing!
Our company is in Slough and I have organised a coach to take people to the racecourse which is about 15 mins away, however there is always so much traffic going there that others reckon it will take about an hour to get there when they leave at 5.30! My plan was to drive behind them in my car as then I will have my car there which will make me feel safer, I am then not dependant on anyone to get home. The thing is I hate traffic so much and the thought of sitting there gets me feeling anxious already. I really feel trapped when I am in traffic and avoid driving on busy roads at busy times at all costs!
The other option would be to go a bit earlier, say at about 4.30pm and get there without much of a risk of traffic. However, then I will be there on my own and although I can sit in the car I know I will be winding myself up the whole time while I am waiting for them!
I live about 20mins away from the course and I will feel trapped there as the traffic will probably be bad on the road I need to go on to get home too.
Blimey just reading back through what I am writing I can tell I am not being very positive at the moment am I!!??
Anyway, can anyone offer me any advise as to which decision to take and what to do if I lose it when I am there.
My boss does know about my issues and has been very supportive, but its not the same as having my 'safe' people around me.
I guess it would just be nice to hear from others who suffer with this telling me that I will be ok and even if I do panic it will pass.
I really don't want to panic in front of everyone there and embarass myself by fainting or making a scene in front of my colleagues.
I would appreciate any help/advise/support anyone else can give me.
Thanks.
Twinkle xx