auxano
28-01-09, 20:27
I have what I think is a mild anxiety.
It started after I had surgery and then episodes of waking in the night with vertigo. My dr did alot of testing and they all came back clear. Now 2 years later I have pretty much decided that the random vertigo was related to having a sore neck. I think I was sleeping with my neck twisted and this somehow caused the dizziness. I found the vertigo to be incredibly scarey and this led to anxiety.
Some days i will just carry this feeling of "dread" but don't know why. Every Sunday I sit in church but when it's time to stand and sing I feel out-of-breath and a bit woozey. This is so annoying as I don't understand why? I choose to sit on the edge of the aisle so I feel "safe" and not squashed into the middle of the pews. I would love to know how to relax and know if the breathlessness/woozy feeling I get when trying to sing is anxiety related?
I think I have done really well in talking my way through this anxiety problem. There were times when I would feel panic when I was in a shop or situation and I have taught myself that "things are fine, nothing bad has ever happened before and you need to relax and calm down" - and I'm pleased to say that it has worked well and I now have no problems going out etc.
However, I am about to go back to school to train as a teacher. This will be for 3 years. This is a HUGE challenge for me. My worry/anxiety/feeling of dread/ has been worse these past weeks and I know it is because of the new challange i have starting next week.
I am wondering about things like this:
-do I play it safe and sit at the back of the classroom (in my mind "giving in" to the anxiety), or do I sit whereever is spare and push through the feelings that may arise?
I wonder if pushing through actually helps, or if things go belly-up and I struggle for 1.5hr lecture with anxiety have I made things worse?
Also, another question:
Becasue my anxiety is all related to being scared I will have another vertigo attack -I think about it every day, I hate the word "dizzy" (it makes me feel nervous), I find that when I get into bed each night I THINK about it, I WORRY I may have an attack that night, I worry about the position of my neck. I have now started waking in the night and the first though is "oh is my neck straight?" etc.
In reality, I haven't had a vertigo attack for at least 6 months!
-How can I get through this paranoia?
Part of me thinks it is a justified parnanoia because it HAS happened, but the other part of me thinks that it's been a long time since it did happen and I don't want to spend 2009 worrying every night when in reality it may NOT ever happen again.
Sorry this is long, I need to just get it out!
Thanks
It started after I had surgery and then episodes of waking in the night with vertigo. My dr did alot of testing and they all came back clear. Now 2 years later I have pretty much decided that the random vertigo was related to having a sore neck. I think I was sleeping with my neck twisted and this somehow caused the dizziness. I found the vertigo to be incredibly scarey and this led to anxiety.
Some days i will just carry this feeling of "dread" but don't know why. Every Sunday I sit in church but when it's time to stand and sing I feel out-of-breath and a bit woozey. This is so annoying as I don't understand why? I choose to sit on the edge of the aisle so I feel "safe" and not squashed into the middle of the pews. I would love to know how to relax and know if the breathlessness/woozy feeling I get when trying to sing is anxiety related?
I think I have done really well in talking my way through this anxiety problem. There were times when I would feel panic when I was in a shop or situation and I have taught myself that "things are fine, nothing bad has ever happened before and you need to relax and calm down" - and I'm pleased to say that it has worked well and I now have no problems going out etc.
However, I am about to go back to school to train as a teacher. This will be for 3 years. This is a HUGE challenge for me. My worry/anxiety/feeling of dread/ has been worse these past weeks and I know it is because of the new challange i have starting next week.
I am wondering about things like this:
-do I play it safe and sit at the back of the classroom (in my mind "giving in" to the anxiety), or do I sit whereever is spare and push through the feelings that may arise?
I wonder if pushing through actually helps, or if things go belly-up and I struggle for 1.5hr lecture with anxiety have I made things worse?
Also, another question:
Becasue my anxiety is all related to being scared I will have another vertigo attack -I think about it every day, I hate the word "dizzy" (it makes me feel nervous), I find that when I get into bed each night I THINK about it, I WORRY I may have an attack that night, I worry about the position of my neck. I have now started waking in the night and the first though is "oh is my neck straight?" etc.
In reality, I haven't had a vertigo attack for at least 6 months!
-How can I get through this paranoia?
Part of me thinks it is a justified parnanoia because it HAS happened, but the other part of me thinks that it's been a long time since it did happen and I don't want to spend 2009 worrying every night when in reality it may NOT ever happen again.
Sorry this is long, I need to just get it out!
Thanks