vastano
29-01-09, 21:26
I think my fear of cancer started when my mum was ill with it many years ago. She is fine now and has been for the last 15 years but i think it must have effected me. Every pain or strange feeling makes me think i have got something terrible. I get so tired worrying about a particular feeling that it is only after time that i forget about it and move on. I am convinced i am going to get cancer of some sort. My current problem started on Sunday. I got a terrible pain in my back that lasted only for a few seconds. Later on in the day i got a pain in my testicle of all places! I panicked straight away and now my mind is focusing on that area 24/7. I have got a sore back now and stomach and i just can free my mind from this and now think i have testicular cancer. I was 100% fine the day before which really annoys me. I have had so many aches and pain and lumps and bumps over the years you would think i would be able to accept them but i cant. It effects my work, my wife and also my mum who i can only speak to about it as she can understand to a degree. I have a feeling i am going to be like this the rest of my life and it must just be in my makeup.