callan
30-01-09, 01:17
hey. i'm an 18 yr old guy and just got prescribed 20mg citalopram 2 days ago. i've felt really empty and sad for a few yrs now, but always convinced myself it was my current situation rather than myself: was at school and hated it, so got a job and hated it, so went to uni and hated it so dropped out. eventually clicked that i might be the problem, so went to the docs. i can't make friends cus i've had the same ones since i was about 5 so have never had to make new ones. i convince myself that ppl will dislike me because i'm not v confident in myself so i just don't speak. the only way around that was alcohol, but that's out now! ha. i flounder in really stupid situations too: i can't go in the bakery cus i don't know which queue to stand in for hot food and which for cold and i hate walking around town cus i think everyone is looking at me and i can't handle busy places. without being morbid, it's good to know there are other ppl going through similar stuff! i find it hard to talk about stuff irl, so i hope this forum helps out there.:)