Anzie2008
31-01-09, 20:05
Tonight I was driving back from the stables in the dark, on my own. It was about quater past 5 and I was driving down a lane where there were no streetlights, but a few factories to the left that were lit up. I was doing about 45mph, and I had my full beam lights on as it was dark... as I turned the corner and went downhill slightly, a lorry was coming my way so I quickly switched my full beam headlights off. There was another lorry behind the first one. As I passed them, I felt a really weird vibration go right through my car, as though my car was shaking slightly. It was really really weird, and I remember going "what the hell was that?!?!" :wacko:
I did try to rationalise thinking that two lorries whizzing past me, and me going down a hill at 45mph caused a gust of wind to rock my car slightly, or that the sheer force gave my car a quick rock. Thing is, I can't get it out of my head that maybe I ran something over... an animal or I've even thought about a person !! I know that sounds ridiculous considering there were no crashes or bangs or anything... there was merely a mild vibration. :scared15: But still I can't help thinking maybe I just didn't see that someone was lying in the road or something !! My God that sounds so ridiculous now I look at it, I just can't help thinking about it :scared15: I think maybe that has something to do with the fact that when I was just 16, (just two years ago) me & my Mum had a car accident when someone ran out infront of our car & we hit them. I still think about the accident all the time and the sheer force & impact of it, so maybe this stupid incident has set it of.
I'm so worried, I cried when I got in, thinking that maybe I'm loosing the plot and that I'm a 'nutter' or something and that I just didn't see whatever was infront of me. But at th esame time, I feel like a nutter for even thinking that someone was there if that makes sense. :weep:
In general, my anxiety has been so much better. I was getting intrusive thoughts before but I've really learnt to deal with it and I've been getting on with things so much better. I'm so scared that it's all going to kick off again!!
Please help me :( Any opinions or advice you could give would really help. Does it sound like it was just a gust of wind that rocked my car for a second or two??
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I did try to rationalise thinking that two lorries whizzing past me, and me going down a hill at 45mph caused a gust of wind to rock my car slightly, or that the sheer force gave my car a quick rock. Thing is, I can't get it out of my head that maybe I ran something over... an animal or I've even thought about a person !! I know that sounds ridiculous considering there were no crashes or bangs or anything... there was merely a mild vibration. :scared15: But still I can't help thinking maybe I just didn't see that someone was lying in the road or something !! My God that sounds so ridiculous now I look at it, I just can't help thinking about it :scared15: I think maybe that has something to do with the fact that when I was just 16, (just two years ago) me & my Mum had a car accident when someone ran out infront of our car & we hit them. I still think about the accident all the time and the sheer force & impact of it, so maybe this stupid incident has set it of.
I'm so worried, I cried when I got in, thinking that maybe I'm loosing the plot and that I'm a 'nutter' or something and that I just didn't see whatever was infront of me. But at th esame time, I feel like a nutter for even thinking that someone was there if that makes sense. :weep:
In general, my anxiety has been so much better. I was getting intrusive thoughts before but I've really learnt to deal with it and I've been getting on with things so much better. I'm so scared that it's all going to kick off again!!
Please help me :( Any opinions or advice you could give would really help. Does it sound like it was just a gust of wind that rocked my car for a second or two??
x