Insomniac
01-02-09, 10:51
HI all,
I am currently reducing the dose of my meds. When I am on them I believe I will be fine and have learnt enough self help to manage if I do feel panicky. Now I am coming off them I have a bad case of the what-ifs.
..What if I can't cope without the seroxat?
..What if the side effects of withdrawl are really panic symptoms?
..What if I get really panicky at work next week?
..What if I am just not meant to come off the meds?
..What if I get really bad again like I was before the meds and counselling?
:scared15: :scared15: :scared15:
Ok, so I'm trying my best to convince myself that I will be fine. I was in a right state before the meds, and I always say they helped me get my head in a place where I was able to listen to my counsellor and practise self help techniques.
Now I am just frightened! Lying in bed last night with butterflies every 10 minutes every time I think about the meds, and feel symptoms in my body. I have dizziness, vision disturbance, brain zaps on and off, and these feelings bring on butterflies and palpitations.
I am struggling with positive thoughts right now. Maybe coming of these is a bad idea. Stupid what-ifs!! A day in the life of someone with PA.... we all feel like that with the what-ifs, its just they are getting the better of me at the moment.
I am shaking typing this now. I try not to think about the anixety because whenever I do I get worried, butterflies and all that. Then have to get it back under control again. I CAN, which is good obviously, I am not out of control, but its hard work. i dont want to feel like this every day.
Any help/ support or advice at all would be wonderful. This is hard and I am doubting.....:unsure:
I am currently reducing the dose of my meds. When I am on them I believe I will be fine and have learnt enough self help to manage if I do feel panicky. Now I am coming off them I have a bad case of the what-ifs.
..What if I can't cope without the seroxat?
..What if the side effects of withdrawl are really panic symptoms?
..What if I get really panicky at work next week?
..What if I am just not meant to come off the meds?
..What if I get really bad again like I was before the meds and counselling?
:scared15: :scared15: :scared15:
Ok, so I'm trying my best to convince myself that I will be fine. I was in a right state before the meds, and I always say they helped me get my head in a place where I was able to listen to my counsellor and practise self help techniques.
Now I am just frightened! Lying in bed last night with butterflies every 10 minutes every time I think about the meds, and feel symptoms in my body. I have dizziness, vision disturbance, brain zaps on and off, and these feelings bring on butterflies and palpitations.
I am struggling with positive thoughts right now. Maybe coming of these is a bad idea. Stupid what-ifs!! A day in the life of someone with PA.... we all feel like that with the what-ifs, its just they are getting the better of me at the moment.
I am shaking typing this now. I try not to think about the anixety because whenever I do I get worried, butterflies and all that. Then have to get it back under control again. I CAN, which is good obviously, I am not out of control, but its hard work. i dont want to feel like this every day.
Any help/ support or advice at all would be wonderful. This is hard and I am doubting.....:unsure: