rgb76
04-02-09, 12:13
Hi- thought I'd post this separately, I have been off work 3 weeks and have a week to go before I am due to return to work
I feel that I have had anxiety-GAD for a long time and have managed to keep it under control until recently. I have an Occ. Health appt next Monday and just hope I feel able to return to work. I am Manager and my line manager is also someone who is relentless with the workload and says we will always be 'busy' and said to me that the 'job won't go away'...very helpful when I'm struggling to cope with work!
Anyhow, I am just starting a computer CBT course which means I will have to face my fears but when...? I will have to be as honest as I can with my boss. I have told my boss it is the workload and although she has been dismissive in her approach I will be telling Occ health this and my GP said that they will have to change something at work in order for me to return...that the problem is 'theirs not mine.'
I do feel so guilty for being off but at the moment feel awful thinking of going back to work...hope these feelings pass :scared15:
I want to return to work and be 'normal' but I don't feel 'normal' at the moment even though by returning to work and doing some of the day-to-day things this may help improve my self-esteem and therefore lift the depression and anxiety.
Another part of me doesn't feel ready to go back to work and feels even further from it as what if I freak out-I am having difficulty with meetings at the moment. I am reading some self-help books and it seems to me that we have to tackle our fears daily by not doing something for more than a few days this can lead to more anxiety but the energy required to do this...hope I feel more confident soon:scared15: :grouphug:
Please let me know your thoughts and experiences
Many thanks
rgb
I feel that I have had anxiety-GAD for a long time and have managed to keep it under control until recently. I have an Occ. Health appt next Monday and just hope I feel able to return to work. I am Manager and my line manager is also someone who is relentless with the workload and says we will always be 'busy' and said to me that the 'job won't go away'...very helpful when I'm struggling to cope with work!
Anyhow, I am just starting a computer CBT course which means I will have to face my fears but when...? I will have to be as honest as I can with my boss. I have told my boss it is the workload and although she has been dismissive in her approach I will be telling Occ health this and my GP said that they will have to change something at work in order for me to return...that the problem is 'theirs not mine.'
I do feel so guilty for being off but at the moment feel awful thinking of going back to work...hope these feelings pass :scared15:
I want to return to work and be 'normal' but I don't feel 'normal' at the moment even though by returning to work and doing some of the day-to-day things this may help improve my self-esteem and therefore lift the depression and anxiety.
Another part of me doesn't feel ready to go back to work and feels even further from it as what if I freak out-I am having difficulty with meetings at the moment. I am reading some self-help books and it seems to me that we have to tackle our fears daily by not doing something for more than a few days this can lead to more anxiety but the energy required to do this...hope I feel more confident soon:scared15: :grouphug:
Please let me know your thoughts and experiences
Many thanks
rgb