evita
05-02-09, 00:50
thinking "this is so scary and new that this has to be something serious".. my feet and hands are freezing, pressure on top of my head, tingling of the scalp and neck/cheek/chin and the bad butterflies...And even though I "know" these are the classic symptoms WHY cant I believe it right now. Im just having visions of somebody finding me in few days lying here on the couch and saying "yes, she was feeling so sick, we should have believed her"...:wacko: I cant believe you can feel this horrible because of anxiety alone, I just cant.. but same story as with so many others, so much money on doctors and nothing...
Have been doing therapy for 3 years,no medication, but now for the first time in those years am left alone..and already in 1 day, suddenly feel like dying. I know, it would be a huge coincidence if by luck something serious would indeed be going on the same day I am alone..why not last week or week before..
and I have been studying anxiety for long and reading these posts for long and still when I start feeling this bad, I dont believe a word :unsure: But when/if i make it through tonight, I once again believe it to be bad anxiety (just to forget it again the next time).
I have used oxazepam just a quarter or so, when ever I feel like I cant move or am in the middle of major panic, but somehow I fear that what if it just "masks" some serious symptoms...
i am sorry for such a negative note but am in middle of freaking out big time.. thank you for letting me share.
Have been doing therapy for 3 years,no medication, but now for the first time in those years am left alone..and already in 1 day, suddenly feel like dying. I know, it would be a huge coincidence if by luck something serious would indeed be going on the same day I am alone..why not last week or week before..
and I have been studying anxiety for long and reading these posts for long and still when I start feeling this bad, I dont believe a word :unsure: But when/if i make it through tonight, I once again believe it to be bad anxiety (just to forget it again the next time).
I have used oxazepam just a quarter or so, when ever I feel like I cant move or am in the middle of major panic, but somehow I fear that what if it just "masks" some serious symptoms...
i am sorry for such a negative note but am in middle of freaking out big time.. thank you for letting me share.