Claireabell
15-07-05, 12:03
Hello Everyone. I am new and this is the first time I have ever posted a message. My name is Claire and I suffer from Social Phobia. I have felt this way since I was a teenager but back then did not realise what was wrong with me. Usual things happened, felt like I was going crazy, nobody seemed to understand, generally kept being told to pull myself together.
When I left school I found it impossible to find a job because I could feared interviewes. My dad found me a job at the company he worked for and to cut a long story short I stayed there for 10 years. I dreaded every single day, and everynight I would cry because I would have to face it all again the next day.
Social Phobia ruined friendships that I had, I found relationships impossible.
As I grew older I found out what was wrong with me and knowing that I was not alone made me feel better. My social phobia has never gone away but at times it has been managed more easily. When I am going through a good period, I make myself do things to try and boost my confidence. I have to keep going back and read up on why I feel like this and what can be done and so on....Right now I am facing up to my fears, my daughter is at school full time (yes I went on to get married and have a child) something I never thought would happen. I have enroled at college and want to return to work. All of this scares me to death. At times I think I can't do this, I am going to make a fool of myself infront of others.
Right now I would love to chat to others about similar experiences, maybe help one another get through it, share ideas, have a laugh......
I do apologise about rattling on and on and I apologise if I end up posting this in the wrong area, I look forward to making new friends , Claire
When I left school I found it impossible to find a job because I could feared interviewes. My dad found me a job at the company he worked for and to cut a long story short I stayed there for 10 years. I dreaded every single day, and everynight I would cry because I would have to face it all again the next day.
Social Phobia ruined friendships that I had, I found relationships impossible.
As I grew older I found out what was wrong with me and knowing that I was not alone made me feel better. My social phobia has never gone away but at times it has been managed more easily. When I am going through a good period, I make myself do things to try and boost my confidence. I have to keep going back and read up on why I feel like this and what can be done and so on....Right now I am facing up to my fears, my daughter is at school full time (yes I went on to get married and have a child) something I never thought would happen. I have enroled at college and want to return to work. All of this scares me to death. At times I think I can't do this, I am going to make a fool of myself infront of others.
Right now I would love to chat to others about similar experiences, maybe help one another get through it, share ideas, have a laugh......
I do apologise about rattling on and on and I apologise if I end up posting this in the wrong area, I look forward to making new friends , Claire