darkphantom
18-07-05, 11:11
I think i have just made a big mistake, though im not sure, i have sat down and written letters to my family telling them how heartless and uncaring they are, and that i have made the decission never to see them again, and i dont even want to have phone or letter contact, trouble is now its just me and steve and of course all you. i posted the letters so its too late to cancel them, im worried cause my brothers and sisters have nasty tempers and it will probably end in a fight. Im just dreading the future now, it hurts me so much when i see familys having fun together. I use to do security work and there is a job coming up which no one wants to take, it pays well, its doing security protection of the troops in iraq im thinking about it its only for 3 months but if i take it perhaps people will be proud of me my doctor says im not in the right mind mentally to take it i dont know can i ask your advice.
I think i just want people to love me and if i can save some lives they will.
I need so much to prove to my self that i am not a bad person ive let everyone down, last text from my brother was im a let down, and all this is my fault and dad would be disappointed in me, thats the one that has hurt most .
think this is why im not sleeping, i sorry to put my problems on you guys, recently ive just felt like going off on my own and not worrying anyone as they say out of sight out of mind. sorry i a pain just so hard at min.
I love you guys
susie xxxxxxxxxxx[B)]
I think i just want people to love me and if i can save some lives they will.
I need so much to prove to my self that i am not a bad person ive let everyone down, last text from my brother was im a let down, and all this is my fault and dad would be disappointed in me, thats the one that has hurt most .
think this is why im not sleeping, i sorry to put my problems on you guys, recently ive just felt like going off on my own and not worrying anyone as they say out of sight out of mind. sorry i a pain just so hard at min.
I love you guys
susie xxxxxxxxxxx[B)]